The needle on my record player is running thin....: long day

long day

Sunday, August 31, 2008 +

im so miserable now

The thing is,i'm already sixteen.kie,goin to be seventeen soon.

im not really trying to grow up too fast okie.it just happens

im okie with the fact that i have this so called curfew,like i must be back at this point or less..

im fine with it.There's this one time where a close fren of mine

asked me the same thing.but i really don't mind eiii

even though i felt so down cause i didnt get to enjoy that much fully,im fine with it

even though it means that i get to spend less time with my loved ones.im fine with it

even though i never alwaes see them that much and that's the only time.im fine with it

i'll awaes be fine at the end of the day.ill always be.

All these things..they are happening to me,and i'm just trying to keep up with them.

I think it would be different if i were rebelling or something.

But i'm trying to do the right things.At least most of the time.

It's true, i don't always think through.so they say

But neither do they know all the good choices I've made or all the stuff I've already say no to.

i thought,if i asked them nicely bout it,i'll get a yes.but no..i was wrong.

we were begging profusely but still.a strict no.why? because of the same old thing.

i said jokingly to my dad like if i became a parent one day,and my daughter/son (InsyaAllah) asked what is the thing u enjoyed doing during ur teenage years.

i'll replied,oh not much.

i stayed home,multi-tasking of either be a computer nerd or a bookworm freak.haha.

i thought my dad will changed his mind but still no..

alah ayah,and so we pout and pout and said,u oso got go through ur teenage years kan.

plez,plez,plez.plez understand.but still NO.so sad.. :(

No,no,no,no.

There,my daily practice in saying NO..

Tapikan,im not GIVING UP.

one day,when everybody's mood was okie,im gonna ask again :]

okie.put that aside and lets blog bout yesterday.

walao.really,really a long day.i had a very packed schedule.

im lazy to blog the detail so just a briief of it eh?

from 1pm onwards,went to singapore poly to attend this bursary thingy Lah's gettin.i was there as her sister while other's had their parents with them.My parents cudnt make it cos they were working.i was separated from Lah.and had to sit where the parents are seating.all around me are makciks and pakciks.i was all alone.beside me was this young gal but we didnt talked,just a frequent smiles here and there.Taufiq was there too.and i did saw my senior,Faris only upstage.waited for all 500 names to be called then around 5 i think,it ended. my back hurts like hell from all that sitting.skipped the refreshment and went somewhere after that.syukur for everything :]

reached home arnd 7pm and so i thought,i dont wanna go to ustaz's fren house but no choice.reached there arnd 8.30pm.Hear him talked profusely bout ramadhan and stuffs.a lot of people were there.there's this guy with funny funny big spec.i mean its a trend luh now and my sis jokingly whispered at me."takde specs lagi besar ker?ahahha" and then i replied,"awk,adik dier muker mcm i___n " and she went silent.Tulah,kacau org lagi.all those time when ustaz was talking,i was sneezing and my nose hurts.Finally,i get to eat.AT FREAKING 12am.i was dead tired when i reached home arnd 1am.really really dead tired.but everything went well.and im happy though.

ahhhahahs.kie,till then

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