i just had the shock of my life ..as in REAL shock
of all things. now it keeps playing in my head over and over again
especially if it alwaes me who had to discovered it ferst when i actually had a phobia of it.
'IT' is the thing that had made me turned into something i dun wanna be..
im so ashamed of myself..
yeah true..people will always go.. "why are u so paranoid with it? " or that they will look at me, bewildered and sometimes shocked at my sudden behaviour or changes in just a mere seconds..
i cant help it..
i've been trying to face my cowardness but i simply cant.
i remembered i even shed a tear once & i noe i dun want to especially in front of so many people but the sudden feelings overpowered me
so i could not do anything..
I wont want to repeat THAT ever again..

haah..
thats just random i guess,
u dun have to exactly know the real situation im facing or what that "it" im refferring to.
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i just get to know
a few frens of mine had already gotten the enrolment package like days ago
yet mine still have not arrived..
gosh..my sis said we were like waiting for a love letter from someone far away.
especially since she started to see the worriedness crafted slowly on my face day by day
when i anxiously peek onto the mailbox only to find ads bout catering..tuition..all those stuffs..
i get to know from jassh that its a whole lot complicated procedure altogether..
haah.. she even said , 'so much for me wanting to start school early'.lol
so i guess i better enjoy my days while it lasts..

these week, the whole family have been busily searching for suitable tuition centres for my youngest sis..BUT TO NO AVAIL..
its either at night or the days/centre arent suitable..
at last i volunteered to be her tuition teacher for this year..
yeah..no kidding.. so mama agreed & she will have to start attending tuition next year ..her crucial year.PSLE..
at least i've something beneficial to do..

kie..i shall end here..
till then

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