The needle on my record player is running thin....

2009-12-16T10:04:00.000-08:00

M O V E D !

2009-07-04T23:33:00.000-07:00

im tired. wo hen lei.

SAYA PENAT!!!

2009-07-01T02:59:00.000-07:00

why is it that we never realised life's too precious to be wasted until we’re really tested?

when people say they hate their life,its kinda bother me to death.

What did life ever do to them?

God tested me today. im so tired, so aching all over and really terrified beyond words after what happened . No words could actually describe how i was feeling at that point of time but everything's fine now. Before, it was like im in another world, like i felt as if the whole atmosphere was somewhat related to a drama scene. For now, im glad its over. im reallly am. The only thing i could afford to do now was to keep on praying. yeahh, things will be fine.

till then;

2009-06-30T05:59:00.000-07:00

this post was initially yest,29 june 2009

I wish I had some cool catch phrase I dreampt up from experience.
But, I guess I'm just not that creative.
Or maybe I just haven't had the right experience, yet.

heehh, yeah, i hvnt been updating here. im sorry.. The last 2 weeks, things has been good. i've get to meet frens and spend time with family (syukur) but eversince the home-based learning (HBL) started today, everything is chaos.. there's tons of ASSigments to be handed in.

GREAT, just what i've needed now. -_-

everybody thought HBL was cool, staying at home and orl that stuffs. trust me, its not! Its full of confusion.i'd rather go school cos at least,
i'd understand what the topic is about after all the explanation. Now, its self- learning.. tell me, what am i supose to do now..

my first ever HBL class starts at 10 today but i woke up late.. i saw eugene's sms and i was like, my god, i forgotten all bout design class. i quickly rush and bath and orl. Sign in, saw only feew peeps and hahah, class ended?? when its only 10.30am. Next thing i know, my email was full of craps from diff lecturer. The next class was at 2pm and i tell ya,this is more chaotic. The most chaotic chat i've ever encountered in my life with almost all my classmate in one chat room window. all those technical problem, this lah, that lah.. started at 2pm, ended at 4pm.
First few hours was okie, but it became reallllllllllll bored after sombody came to d scene, and lecturer starts questioning. debating bout in vivo and invitro stuffs. okie, i've to admit, i nearly fall asleep. sianzzz THIS IS SO BORING. WHY DO I EVEN BOUTHER TYPING THIS?

sumpah,just one class and im so tired like hell

no elearning tml but the horror gonna resume this wed onwards. And since my common test is postpone, i FORGOT WHAT I'VE STUDIED LAST 2 WEEKS.. tell me, isnt this the MOST FRUSTRATING thing ever happened?? my brain, i cant help it sia.. haiyooooooooo

i wish im born smart :(

30th june 2009

haah,of cos.. today was mugging day i think? No elerning so i met up with poonam, taufiq and jumali for our group discussion. There was Lah and Aida too. too bad Shasha cudnt join us. its been damn long since i went to causeway. What a life! but nothing's change. FINALLY, i get to eat the chicken rice again. yeay

didnt stay for long cos one thing for sure, i cant study when im outside. Group study or whatever discussion there is , is tolerable for me. BUT, self-study has became an issue since whenevr. i cnt remember though. OK, this is kinda weird, but i get dizzy studying outside, its like my tudung weight a ton and adding to that weight is orl those stupid equation or whatever whatever alien info that i've to add on in my brain. so u see? Studying outdoor is a no-no. pity huh? Fortunately, i've managed to discuss the maths assignment with nam. one burden lessen

hahaha, okie, gtg
till then,

2009-06-27T01:28:00.000-07:00

i am so tired. im aching all over. And im hungry! My God, it feels as if i've not eaten for days. kie,melampaunyer. im better off fasting if this continues evryday but seriously, the stomach been making lots of noise since just now. But im good, and so far,the day has been fruitful.i've done all the necessary things that's need to be done. yeah,mission accomplished!weeeee.k,NEXT

u noe, just an hour ago, i've received a phonecall from this lady about a scheme which im unsure off. she seem nice but its clear though what's her motive is. All the promises, and then 15 mins later the " u see, its seem abit difficult for me to discuss this over the phone. why dont we meet up? " talk blablabla and finally the benefits. tell me, wudnt u get frustrated? Annoying much i culdnt bothered to hear further and so i said nicely," im sorry but im not interested in all this" hoping it'll get through but she talks even faster and faster. really, very annoying. :(

and i'd an awesome friday! Friday seems a good day cos from morning till nite, people around me been making me happy. Spent the afternoon with Diana. we watched transformer 2 and boy was it good! My mum treat me. she gave me d money for the movie. But i had to use my own money for my food.

Then during the night, my dad was storytelling us. My God, i cant stand it ahhh the way he storytell us. Mostly about his past. And i dunno why, he came to a point where crazy people came to d picture. i think its because we've just watched a malaysian drama bout this women who had split personality and she suffered from major stressness. Disgustin tale ever told. too bad, its the truth. its sad.. but if i were happen to be there at that time of the year, i'll probably be terrified and wont step out of my house.

crazy people scare me. But my dad end his story by saying,when they died, they'll go to heaven. definitely.

till then,

2009-06-23T21:28:00.000-07:00

Sometimes You think You'll Be Find by Yourself
Cause a Dream is a Wish You Make all alone
Its Easy to Feel Like You Dont Need Help
But Its Harder To Walk On Your Own

You'll Change Inside When You Realize
The World Comes To Life and Everythings Alright
From Beginning To End When You Have a Friend By Your Side
-gift of a friend (demi lovato)

This past few weeks, i realized how much i'm afraid of failure. How much i hate not knowing whats the future holds for me.i push myself to try and be perfect, but that's never going to happen. Admit it, perfect doesn't exist, and my best is good enough.i'm going to mess up just like we all do and i think im starting to. Its preety messed up now. Common tests are ruining my life. My world only evolves around books now. And i've only started my GMP project just this monday with the help of my dearest frens,poonam and xiaoqian. i wonder what makes my lecturer think we can do it by ourselves. without a headstart, without any clue.. what does that left us? this is by far the most ridiculous project i've done in my entire life. yes. i hate it. and dun talk to me about biosensor cos i screwed that too.

Maybe it makes sense now. Maybe somewhere in all of this there’s a reason.
Maybe somewhere in all of this there’s a why. But nothing, not getting angry, not prayers,
and not tears, nothing can make something that happened unhappen.

so? it probably all comes down to one thing. go figure it out :)

okie, so now im onto demi lovato instead. forget about korean series, forgot about jun pyo

and forgot about yijung . haha. As you can see im reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel BORED
later ahhh study, heeh

till then,

2009-06-20T03:32:00.000-07:00

i've finally finally ACCOMPLISHED my MISSION!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. i guess, its over? a very happy ending indeed :]
but for every ending, there's got to be a new beggining.. so yeay, NOW STUDY TIME!!

till then,

2009-06-17T22:13:00.000-07:00

oh yeay, yesterday's outing, with my preetty preetty dear galfrens, ain,atikah,shariffa and twinney. its been damn long and i missed each and everyone of them. Though, all these while, we've been contacting each other through the cyber world, it wasnt the same kind of feeling when we finally meet up face to face. Hang out at harbourfront pizza hut, walked around the city. i feel good.. heee. We'll meet up soon again. :)

Words... They are clear & specific .But, when you talk about feelings, words are too stiff .They are this & that . They can't conclude all the meanings...They always leave something out. All these stuffs, all these matters..The things i cant say; the things i dun understand; its very very frustrating.

It took me a long time to realize this and I think I'm starting to.. It's just a sad picture.At some point of time,its very very disappointing. i really dun understand.Really, like a fren told me, it takes a million years to know a person. So they say, a person is never as quiet or bitter as they seem... or as good, as bad, as vulnerable, as strong or as sweet.. should i hold on to this? really? who do i believe now? I used to think when I got older, the world would make more sense. But you know what? The older I get, the more confusing it is to me. The more complicated it is to me. The more frustrating its is.You'd think we'd get better at it. But not me.

Problems, one after another;
why are there so many problems in this world? when will it end? when will it be solved?

i feel so useless;
the way she came up to me one day and opened up everything;
the way she poured out all her heartful words while on the verge of tears;
the way she described everything of her life now. how people can be so heckcare and hypocrite and whatsnot. yet i couldnt say anything to make her feel better. really, im sorry

and the way i see those reactions, the hope .
that oneday, things get better but u noe what, it came crashing down eventually.
that hope, it wont last long isnt it?

do you think it's possible that anyone else in the world is feeling the exact same way
that we are at this very moment? pfft, i just wrote a post where 95% of it concerns other people.
and i feel somwhat accomplished that i let out 30% of my heartful words. chey chey.kie dah, dun
laugh. i shall continue watch the korean drama, boys over flowers. Ain finished watching it already.. good thing its the holiday now. Its the closest,sweeetest ever thing i've ever watched. really, heeh

2009-06-14T08:23:00.000-07:00

look around, dont ya feel something missing?

Its 30 minutes to midnight but im so alive than ever. Gonna sleep later than that. Its been a good good weekend, i shall say. Everrsince last friday and now, i think im so high and happy, im like in cloud nine. Been so long, so long that we held a wedding event among my relatives and the days were finally here. Really, its so damn exciting, i enjoyed every minutes spent there with my cousin and relatives mum's side. kinda grand. The food's nice. everything perfect to me .

oh yeay,u noe what? There's lots of eye-candies!! haha one of the reason i love weddings. BUT wait, at least i didnt go gaga or what instead of the others, like my small sis for eg. eye candy only whattttt. LOL. They keep talking and gossiping like makciks over these guys, omg. i bumped into lots of familiar faces too! Way unexpected to know my mum know my fren's mum and stuff like that. Felt somewhat funny to bumped into frens in a wedding. i mean my cousin's wedding. jasshima was there too. haha. really, i was so glad lah kie to see them! heee. and i made new frens.

didnt have to do much work cos there's the kendarat guys. selamat. thank god haa, cos im in heels the whole day. but im so tall, im so happy for once. damn tiring sittin around and talking and staring and looking at people haha so me and cousins went up. The next thing we did was to watched "Jangan tegur ", this malay ghost movie.

okie, so the idea of watching a horror movie upstairs while downstairs, there's singer and traditional music instruments being played wasnt such a good idea after all. WASNT SCARY!! cos i cudnt hear the sound effect! The scary effects clashed with the happy happy dondang sayang and etc etc. instead of shouting, i was laughing. Lil bit later, annoyed cos the ghost appear while the singer was shouting her merrily beautiful voice. Really, in that kind of situation, i find it very very funny .

then the movie ended. tak seram langsung. we went for the next dvd, coming soon dunno what, its horror movie too but soon one by one fell asleep. the next instance, people start coming upstair and iknoe, the wedding event gonna end soon.

packed up. helped bit here and there.
home sweet home. and now, here i am updating this space.
pictures,not much,the rest i was lazy to take so yeah.

dont leave me out here all alone oh no, im still
right here, where'd you go.

till then

2009-06-12T05:52:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I forget how

I actually am feeling.

I just got so used to saying I'm good. Life's good

blablabla when in actual fact its not. Today's friday which means the last day of sch. u wont have

figure out what kind of crazy plan i had today. well, turns out i chickened out d last minute.

i am so so glad, i need it so badly. its so near,i can almost taste it. haah, dramatic nyer.kie.

i had my german test today and i swear its was the dumbest test i ever did.

Simply said, all the questions are like what lah kie. i feel like a somewhat noob and stupid

and super suckish,cracking my brain like that, figuring out what

the heck they are asking. its like talking duck and chicken language. u get it? haaha, no u dont.

class have been interesting and entertaining. :)

ended early today at noon. in the morning just before waking up, i dreamed about something.

its preety much nice and nostalgic. i wish i can just stay where i am and not get ready for sch.

i mean, come on. its not like everyday i get to dream nice dream. most of it is sleepless dream

there's common test after this 2 weeks holiday and truckloads of projects and assigment due.

whoever thought that the 2 weeks holiday are enough for all this to be done isnt such a smart

idea at all. maybe, maybe, i'll worried about that later.

im addicted to korean drama series now. its been forever since i revied that feeling. so now, im

gonna continue watching boys over flower. its damn nice kie. i cheat. i couldnt wait for the ending

cos one thing about korean drama, they dragged and dragged and dragged the episodes.

the ending always ended up in airport. so yeah, i clicked the last part. so nice lah can.

till now, i cant forget the proposing part.

4 more days.. hopefully, things will go smoothly. been so long.yeah

that's bout it. gonna go youtubing now. :)

till then lovelies,

2009-06-06T04:58:00.000-07:00

Im stressed with this mess..

i think im going nuts.
i've like not 1 not 2 but 3,4,5 TESTs and ASSIGNMENTS and PROJECTS
that needs to be done and the figure is growing. That scares me alot okie

im tired, im stressed and i dun like it. Therefore i shall end my post here.
thanks for cuming and reading. so long

till then,

-------------------------------------------------------

im virgo.. nothings seems true.. i dunno. haha

VIRGO WOMAN

She will be similar to Leo woman in appearance. A slim woman who walks with confident and proud. She has an egg shape facial structure, high and round forehead. She likes to look straight as if she is searching. She is not a pretentious type and will always say what she thinks.

You will see Virgo woman walks fast. She will try her best to be perfect, to look perfect and to feel perfect even though there is no such perfection. She is very delicate of what and how she dress. She is bright and easily despair with obstacles. She likes smart guy who will be compatible with her, so if you are a rich dumb guy, you can forget about her right now.

She is not a very possessive or jealous person for she expect respect from her love one. She does not like a part time lover, or a temporary mate. If she finds her dream man, she will not go away. If she does not like you, she will always keep a certain distant. Act proper and appropriate is her discipline.

She does not like and can not stand bad languages, cursing words or phrase. She likes a gentleman who open the doors for her. She wants to feel protected and when a man taking care of her, she will feel like a complete woman. She memorizes everything about other people and about herself very well. She can really keep secret, you can trust her on this. She likes a refreshing and a mild scent. She is very delicate in maintaining her beauty, so you could see she is seriously picking soap which match and most suit her skin. Do not comments her on this very picky habits, it is her happiness in working full times as a self beautifier.

She is not an innocent angle for sometimes she can be as tough as steel. Even she easily despair, she is not the type to cry over it. She is a shy type, so making speech in front of the room can make her nervous even she walks and talks confidently. She only search for true love , not just any love. Her love is an ideal one. She likes to think no one is neater and as effective as her, which can irritate you sometimes for there is no such thing.

She likes sweet talk, but she can slip and say something unpredictable and unbearable to you too. When she stops getting mad, she will totally forget what she just said and be an angle again. If you have a date with her , you'd better be there on time. Flowers and sweet word can calm her down.

If you want to say sorry , make it brief and straight forward. Do not drag your apologetic words into a long making it up events, it could lead you to another world war. She likes her man to dress nice and clean. She is good in details especially with money. Do not make she thinks that she is a clown or funny. In the beginning of knowing her, please try not to glance at other pretty woman so much. Early period of dating her, try not to hold her so much in public, it would not be a proper thing to do. She loves books, stage play and music and likes to criticize about them too.

Criticism woman is her icon including big and small things in life starting from your hair, your dress , and the way you talk. If you are in love with her, be as almost perfect as your can.

2009-06-02T08:04:00.000-07:00

you have one wish to send into

the atmosphere

Admit it,life is a mixture of sunshine & rain; laughter & pleasure; teardrops & pain.
when the clouds hide the sun & your skies are all grey, remember,just remember...
the distance is only a phone call away...

Really,all i wanted to say is don't get things affected you much and pressurize you .

these things will change for the better one day. trust me,

Everything will be what u want it to be when that time comes.

im sorry if all this while, i didnt do much.

im probably suck at making people better. even so, it happens rarely

But I hope, somehow, right now you're feeling a little better.

InsyaAllah, this moment of period is temporary . hold on; just hold on..

you must keep pushing somehow

its like nearing to midnite now and im still wide awake.

i had a preety much decent night.

the day pretty much sucked, housework in the morning, homework in the afternoon;

but i guess that’s my fault for not making it the best that it could’ve been.

it's tuesday which means sch's day off

i've like a list of things to do already planned but i've only done like half of it.

things are making me worried already. no wonder they say, procrastination kills.

yesterday was the day when i was so so pissed off with a lecturer. really, must she do that?

this is random but i love my poly mates for making my days fruitful than usuals.

i do miss my secondary sch days as well. thats like really, i donno..

somehow, i saw other people's life and i tend to get jealous.

well,in the ferst place i shouldnt be.

i shouldnt be complaining. its a funny thing.

cos right now, its full of upsides down

and ohhh, wanna know something?

DARIN ZANYAR is my newest addiction. haha his songs is damn nice.

There's a malay actress who always appear on Malaysian RTM drama

who looks a bit like Darin, Asyraf Muslim. awww, heeeh.

ish ish ish.. okie, preety much that sums up everything

i need an ice cream now. okie no, probably tml

till then,

2009-05-30T06:42:00.000-07:00

And she cried emerald tears...

i've been so busy that i've been neglecting this space of mine. yeah, busy sangat. This week is damn short, what else can i say? days are getting mundane. doing the same things again and again.been rushing and pushing myself to finish up projects and assignment. one after another. nothing excites me anymore. worst when i know the month of may is gonna end. i guess june holidays are here finally? for them, not for me :( yeah, sad. im desperate for it. i need to breathe. like seriously. even so, when the time comes, i dun think i've much fun. haaah, we'll see. 2 weeks onleeeeeeeeeeeeee. kie, better than nothing. what do ya expect?

u wondering why this week feels so short? cause most of the time class starts later than usuals and the feeling is so uncanny. im so gundu.. haha. i woke up damn early on wednesday expecting to come early for my ferst class, anatomy. The previous week i was late like half an hour. bad impression. Just when i was reaching to admiralty, XiaoQian called me saying theres no class .
ohhhhemmmmmmmgeeeeeeeee.. i woke up early for nothing. since there no way to u-turn back, i decided to just go sch. Reached sch to discover almost the whole class didnt know that there wasnt any anotomy at all.. yeah, wasted . i know.

the ferst few minutes, we were like staring each other with nothing to do. everyone was restless. i only had anatomy class and biomedical project that day. that's explain why we didnt bring many stuffs.my sis wasnt schooling that day. shops & AMK hub havnt yet open. i was like seriously BORED that in that instance even counting pebbles excite me.. LUCKILy, luckily shafeeq lend me his laptop.. syukur syukur at last! Thanx bnyk-bnyk! i swear if the next time this happens again, i will be so so so miserable. heeeh

praying hard there's no next time.

oh yeay, and i just bought scarfs today with LAH. haha. before that, i met poonam at admiralty.
i love talking to her.. she make me laugh like what just now. hayooo :)
and i snack-shoppin as well.

i was like, " eh, nak niii.. tu pon nak.. ehh, tu takya lah.. berape eh? okie boleh boleh.."
all the way. LAH was frowning cos of my fickleness. tsk tsk.

AND THIS,i like it everytime the chorus came :)

TILL THEN lovelies;

2009-05-25T23:20:00.000-07:00

I cant help it anymore.It's only like 2.20pm. afternoon?

I'm already frustrated, and I don't even really have any good reasons.

It's like a constant feeling lately; comes and goes.

And the sad thing is, I don't really have any control over it.

being the eldest really sucks.i hate it, like terribly am.

horrible tuesday. and i've yet to finish my lab report.

but i'd an awesome monday yesterday,

i didnt have monday blues, i dunno why. i wasnt starving at all by the end of

GMP, thats like really surprising. i ate something, something heavy u cud say,

before nite class starts which i usually dont. there wasnt really a lesson going

on yesterday nite so after doing the CMS quiz, we have like 1 hour or less to

urselves. Our lecture was MIA for quite some time that night so the whole of

H1 and H2 just hangout at the lecture thetre. best! haha. And lastly, JESSICA

came to NYP! yay! like finally, get to see her. Took lotsa pictures but i was

overcame with shyness at that point of time. Luckily there wasnt much people at Mc'donald. heeeh

Credits goes to Jessica for all the pictures here. THANX! :DDD

Your a whisper away from me, but I can't seem to get out the right words to make you see.
What else is there for me to say, when in the end we come back to the same place.

till then;

2009-05-23T05:53:00.000-07:00

Don't it always seem to go that you don't know what you've got til it's gone?? now im gonna cherish everything arnd here. hopefully .i know sometimes i can be so selfish. im sorry if im like that. and i know i can be quite bossy. but its for your own good my dear.i've a big responsibility here. really big and im trying to catch up with all these responsibilities here. if you dont help me, then who will? its not easy being the eldest.pffft :( lately, things hasnt been good. My life is flying by. everything's a mess.

im lost in between piles and piles of reports and assignments. i bet week 8 will turns out

to be a disaster. that's the period where test will appear one by one.

But this is just the beginning;oh god

im already trying not to be so stressed up. like really really trying hard now.whats with

being the eldest, the responsibility blablabla and now what, sch? im preety sure if i were

to be, things will get to nowhere. kan? kan? isnt it?

right now, im stuck with the GMP reports and tutorials. i dun think i can even finish

before the deadline tml. im so dead. my frens, they are not doing,maybe i should too

and just give a blanked face this monday. the, " seriously,damn, i dont know a single thing!!" kinda look.

yea, shouldnt take things too seriously at this point of time. not good for my health.

i cant even enjoy my weekends. :( where's all the free time?

im sorry if im so whiny nowadays.i've been complaining to my frens alot these days. i dun even know why.

whiny,i noe but i nid to let it out.. wth

okie this is random but i can go crazy msn-ing with ariff and shafeeq today. haiyooo.

but i did get a fair share of laughters today.

(1:53 PM) i D a h ---->>: sjal biler jadi detektif? i thot u want to become a TCHER
(1:53 PM) i D a h ---->>: later if u were to bcum a tcher kan, i wont send my child to ur school! hmpffft
(1:53 PM) i D a h ---->> :(
(1:53 PM) -118- -aRs- Dete: lol!
(1:53 PM) -118- -aRs- Dete: why not?
(1:53 PM) -118- -aRs- Dete: im a gd teacher
(1:53 PM) -118- -aRs- Dete: excuse me okay

(1:55 PM) i D a h ---->> told ya,im unpredictable; has changed his/her personal message to "JANGAN NAK MEREPEK K! BILANG KHALILAH BARU TAU!"
(1:55 PM) i D a h ---->>: look up.. my PM

haaaaah, see, i just have to scare him with the threats. LOL

tsk tsk tsk

till then lovely people

im still not done with the night just yet.

11pm, too early

2009-05-19T00:28:00.000-07:00

haaaahh,yeahhh,MATHS.. im referring to maths btw. I think i've wasted my time studying for the so-called quiz test which was yesterday. At last, i didnt really do all the question.Almost the whole class i guess.We busily did something else. and now i feel weird all of a sudden. like gosh, doesnt feel like a quiz at all. my lecturer is damn cool. while we sat for the quiz, he went outside. obviously, everybody was talking,seraching for ans.This is my sch's life. *tsk tsk
i think i'll miss this in few years time :(

so i end late yesterday,every monday that is. went back home with the usual cliques. Once again I'm being reminded on how small built and short am i around them. Kie,no all the time. hahah.. why thank q but im average height OKIE, just that people arnd me are freaking tall. :P

i usually love mondays, even though the monday blues wont go away till after break time, even though i've nite class and ended late, even though i'll be starving like what at the end of GMP lessons. haaah. love love it. okie, this is random, but i didnt know there's some sort of a garden near the carpark arnd south canteen till dear poonam showed me. i know, one year oreadi sia. so, to pass time while waiting for the GMP to starts, me and her went there without realising hidhir and taufiq near us so ,all of us went there. came back still donno what to do while waiting for Mr Alfred to arrive. im sick of studying and so we gals gossip..and please,its harmless gossip, not those bitchy kind. hahah. And i wore a sneaker yst, freaking funny ahh. no choice,since i've lab. but they've been nice and all, saying i look just fine.. aww. only my sista said i look WEIRD :(

the tumbler saved me in the end.. :) and the rose was by fatin. isnt it nice? i've a feeling she's into art now.. wuhoooo

"Sometimes our fate resembles a fruit tree in winter. Who would think that those branches would turn green again and blossom, but we hope it, we know it. :)"

till then lovelies,

2009-05-16T01:01:00.000-07:00

like finally, i've time to spare.

you attacked everything in life with a mix of extraordinary genius
and naive incompetence and it was often difficult to tell which was which

"Taylor swift- You belong with me" video is like awww.. she's preety even with the geek specs

Kie, actually im pissed off now.
just a while ago, i overheard a conversation accidentally between my mum and dad over this
long stupid issues about some people that's been bugging me for ages. and yes,i dont want to
hear any further. it irritates me to death. no, those kind of people irritates me to death.

if only my parents understand how it feels like everytime when im there.
Honestly, im still feeling the pinch. im not supposed to be like this. i dont like it.

ahhh,kie NEXTTT,

as you can see, even if u dun noticed yet, i've deleted the previous post cos i find it redundant.
i've promised i wont disturb them with my anoyying tease anymore. hahha..

so much had happened this week.
im exeptionally happy on this particular day cos i didnt expect it coming. :]

assigments and projects are taking a toll on me. oh how much i detest all this.
on odds day, i spent my time searching infos one after another at the net. tiring
i feel lethargic most of the day and at times, blanked.
Donno how the hell im gonna survive.

you know the feeling when u were given assignments to do and all this while,
u thought they were to be handwritten . so you write and write and write and
how tiring it can be cos ur lecturer wont expect a single line short kind of answer
and so u write one whole big chunk of paragraph, one foolskeps after another
only to find out the next day that u are required to TYPE it and send an email instead!
TYPE?? like what kan? i wrote my tutorials assingment with my best handwriting,
spent hours on it and now? i've to type it.. like ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

my God.

kie, i'll stop here. must get back on typing..
i swear i hate the keyboards now.

heh,kidding. just kidding
till then lovely people,

2009-05-10T08:07:00.000-07:00

There comes a moment when it's more than just a game,
and you either take that step forward

or turn around and walk away.

I could quit but

here's the thing, i love the playing field.

haaah,yeay..i had a vey fun day today!

im exhausted and im dead tired

my mum,shes the bestest bestest bestest mum EVARRR i could get and i thank Allah for that

For 17 years, she's always been there whenever i need her by my side

Mama,i love you and will always be till whenever :DD

gathering's at my grrndma's house.

kecoh. i love it. i always love it whenever im near mum's side

there's tons and tons of food,wuhhhuuuu

spent the whole day there.BEST ahhhh

okie, yang tak best nyer, i've school tml like what??

and i'll only be back home at 9.30pm

nvm,nvm..at least im not bringing laptop tml.. heavy..haha

and i cant stand it having to carry that all over NYP

till then lovelies, i think i'll update on a week to week basis from now on

u see, i no longer have the time to spare on blogging anymore.bummer

hahhaha,we'll seeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ok??

2009-05-09T01:02:00.000-07:00

It took me a long time to realize this and I think I'm starting to..
but sometimes what you want isn't always what you get.
but in the end, what you get is so much better than what you wanted. :]

This week has been a roller-coaster ride.and im totally exhausted.really am.
its not easy as the days gets by.modules are getting tougher and tougher.
sometimes,i really wonder wether im in the right course or not :S
seriously,all the what ifs. im goin crazy in this land of what ifs i've created.
okie,no use doing all this. If everything going your way,expect shitstorm..haha

good lucks and bad luck runs in me this whole week. im happy and yes,im upset too
i lost my ezlink on the way back home frm sch.i was scared stiff,

seriously donno what to do. donno how it slipped off from my wallet and all.

luckily just the ezlink and not I.C. omg,the thought of it shudders me.

JJ calmed me down,he called poonam and she finally make me relax..

get back home, still didnt confessed to my mum and dad.been along time since they

scolded me like really scold me badly and im so afraid to face it.went online,

talk to eugene,xiao qian& shafeeq..All of them tell me the same thing.

my fren has been a great help. i really apreciate it much.

Thanx u guys for all the help!!

after prayer finally i confessed to my dad ferst.

yeah, i took like almost a day to confess?

his reaction was way diffrent than i expected.he didnt scold me or what.

thank goodness. then i went over to mama. but yeah, she scold me.of cos lah.

i hide behind my dad all this while..hahah coward. but i love them. .

after what happens..

for everything. everything

& finally, i met shafeeq, 3 days in a row :]

ohhh,and now? im heavily in debts. heh,as if!
okie,no, im serious! i owed alot alot of reports and its due this week.
like what kan?? urghhh

tml's mother's day! :]
till then

time is fleeting

2009-05-03T00:49:00.000-07:00

Time is fleeting,

but i couldnt be happier than i am now...

I love today

Finally, met my galfrensss :DD
after so long.
went over to atikah's new house.
slack and hear updates on each other.
one thing for sure,her family is very very friendly towards us.
it was a sheer moment of awkwardness the ferst few minutes we gals arrive.haha

i was hoping all the while that time could past by slowly
but too bad,it wasnt the case.
But seriously,we were having fun with the photoshoots and all..tsk tsk tsk
my stomach hurts like hell from alll the laughter

oh, and these two ladies finally get bullied by me today..

all the basket,kambing and idiot.. heh

u know,im just kidding only..sorry!

how cool to finally realised that we lived near each other now..
i love admiralty :]

**some of the pictures i grabbed from ain and atikah,HEH

somehow,i hate hearing certain songs cos it brings back certain memories..

boohhooo

TILL THEN;

MUMMIEFIED FINGERS

2009-05-01T01:56:00.000-07:00

MUMMIFIED FINGERS! YIKES!

kie,im exaggerating, i forgot to blog bout it till i see eugene's. heh

yeaps,last wed's lab, i was pricked TWICE at my fingers. Once not enough.

at last they have to prick my middle finger.tskk to find out what type of blood i possessed

my blood very stubborn to come out. so little. geram seh.

i nearly fainted when my lecturer came to me and thinks the amount of my blood is very limited.

like seriously,oh nooo. But u know what,the experiment never fails me at last.

Im 0 POSITIVE.. :]

i walked arnd and saw the others squeezing and squeezing as if its a normal routine.

ahyerrrrrrrrrrrrr, & the disgusting part,i've to stirred my own blood using toothpicks.

TOOTHPICKS -_-

oh yeah,as far as iknow,that's like an ant's bite.

today's friday! i suppose to be out of town now..enjoying the breeze..

so sad that things have to become like this.nvm,there's next time

i miss my cuzzins( mum's side) now...

this kakak sedare of mine love to disturb me.

but i hvnt seen her much now till last last nite during MSN..

(11:11 PM) shikin :u also minah tudung what hahahaa
(11:11 PM) shikin :ape la idahh
(11:11 PM) i D a h ---->> :nooooooooooooooo
(11:11 PM) i D a h ---->> :hahahha
(11:11 PM) i D a h ---->> :im not minah tudung
(11:11 PM) shikin :yeaa
(11:12 PM) shikin :u minah fairy

-
-
-
KIE,I CUT SOME CONVO ,HEEH .. she called me minah fairy?? tsk tsk

(11:16 PM) i D a h ---->> :cya like soon!
(11:16 PM) i D a h ---->> :and dun tire urself sangat tau!
(11:16 PM) i D a h ---->> :and im not MINAH TUDUNG!
(11:17 PM) i D a h ---->> :whahhaha
(11:17 PM) i D a h ---->> :bubbye :]
(11:17 PM) shikin :heheh
(11:17 PM) shikin :okie tkcrrrr minah fairy
(11:17 PM) i D a h ---->> :thats better
(11:17 PM) i D a h ---->> :muah!
Minah fairy again? tsk
aites,till then lovelies ,lots and lots of tasks awaiting me :(

how in the world

2009-04-28T01:47:00.000-07:00

"And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can't ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older and see the people in your life break one by one. "

tell me how would you feel when u know its ur responsibility to do something but then u realised u dont have the authority to do a single thing .As i grow up,everything starts to change gradually.all my life,people been telling me what to do whats not and im getting sick and tired of it.
years later,they forgo what they've been believing, praticing, preaching just to fit in.thats like so discouraging to me. how i struggled to face all this.Truth is,i miss the innoncence society stole from us.so who's fault now? and i think this "Dun judge a book by its cover" thingy has becoming so so cliche that i hate it,dun u think so? crap when in actual fact we do judge a person just by one glance. but please please think twice before u start judging on people.. i mean will it do u good ? like hellloooooo?? please lah

i've seen all sorts,having to do something with people of not my kind and i think they are far more better to be with since they showed who they really are deep inside sincerely ..i know my limits and i can do what i want just as long as it doesnt go against my religion.descrimination is so so evil.urghhh! i know im still young, im naive at times.im not good at making decisions.im not a saint whatsoever.sometimes i break rules. im just like any other teenager okie. fall in and out of love. sucks in relationship whatsover.

im sure everyone has a certain part of their lives where they truly wish they could just freeze time.Whether it was three years ago, today, or still to come. Whether it was just a moment, a whole day, or a whole minute. i wish i could freeze mine u know.. never grow up. just stay where i am now so i dont have to witness any more people breaking again and again

and i think i did realised something above all this, to be strong and believeing on urself
cos at the end of the day,u dun rely on anybody but urself to stay on...

no school today, :]
and hey, after so long, i played badminton today.woahhh! i burned a few calories.so happy sia. went to sch today with LAH and syasya. aida's sick.really hope shes feelin better tml. i swear im becomin short-sighted. i didnt see atikah and raudah while goin down d escalotor and azirwan near the fountain yet,they tegur me first .They must have been thinking i arrogant oreadi. lol sorry guys.. when i walked,i just walked straight blindly without seeing people's faces. heh :P

met them at the indoor stadium.only poonam,taufiq shaobin and jj came. Kai joined us later and i played with poonam first then shaobin.. both really good. then i declared tiredness and emo to one side.wahhaha .see them play and enjoyed the scenery there.. nothing much. by noon ,home sweet home

and now? im struggling multitasking between doing the stupid biomedical project and helping my mum making the currypuffs.. oh god

but life's good.syukur. im goooooooooood :DDD

till then,

2009-04-27T08:33:00.000-07:00

oh man, im so tired. i just got back home from night class.

i think i laugh too much today? tsk..

we play a fool during lab,but we are serious when comes to work aye..haha

something happened,i was at the "wrong place,wrong time"

but luckily luckily my lecturer is nice.. phewww :]

maths is still a foreign language to me.. :(

and i watched this very old movie "AQUAMARINE" on my weekend

i swear its the nicest movie so far... heh,apart from "17 AGAIN" :]

i love it..

TILL THEN; :D

2009-04-24T23:27:00.000-07:00

i wanna smile,cause i deserve it.

school's is such a bore,just one week and so many projects :( oh man

and this will continues for the next 16 weeks ?

.
lately,everything around me is such a dissapointment and i hate hate that
what went wrong? idk. this is so so frustrating.

dont u know it takes a million years to understand a person let alone trust.

evrybody knows this -_-

kie,NEXT

yesterday,during german class,my lecturer,he's a malay btw called me makcik cos i was talking

to LAH to confirm my hp number and didnt raised my hand when he said anyone got facebbok

or not.tsk -_- oh no, think he will add the whole class up sooner. but class was amazingly okie

and my biomedical design lecturer said i look serious the moment i enter lab and sitdown,

like of cos lah .must i laugh or grin or smile instead? the rest of my classmates

seems quiet and serious too.. but ridiculous thing is,he's okie.

biosensor was the worst.the lecture part. seems tough, dun even wanna start it.

okie maybe not, maybe to some extent i like it,the lab part cos..hahah

gals,u know iknow eh.. lol. :]

For the past few days,multi-tasking has been my forte that at times,im really finnding myself in

a middle of a mess and confusion like oh hold it,what am i doing now? what must i do next?..

u know that kind of stuffs? damn,multi-tasking is unhealty.for me that is

just now,i was running tru pages one after another at the net for the biomedical project .

than i get bored.real bored and off to facebook-ing. find some interesting quizez

and in the end,all the ansswers i get are stupid.

mcm malas gitu nak continue research..ahhhhhhhhhhhh

im so lazy. i dun think i will go for the class tml.

i know,my parents gonna kill me.hahha :(

till then

2009-04-21T05:59:00.000-07:00

u never know,u never know

oh hey,helo,i know i havnt been updating.both blogs. tsk
alot has been happenning lately and i cant bring myself to sit in front of this lappy
and spent hours and hours just like before anymore. im really really eex⋅haustED today
and the ridiculous thing is,this doesnt came from school but from accompanying my mum
the whole afternoon shopping. i tried to control my desire for buying new stuffs,i did but
heeh,ended up the opposite. there goes my hard earned money.

and now,im still am tired.ayah just finish teaching me talaqi.
he so strict. uh oh im so dead....ill worry that later

so my ferst day of year 2 went well? ok ok i suppose.class is still as crazy as ever.
except i wonder how im gonna survive my anatomy and maths this whole sem.
i didnt know anatomy can be THAT boring.nearly dozed off listening to homeostasis and stuff
Maths was ridiculously funneh, we kept laughing listening to his lecture and thats it.
2 whole hours and i cant recall nor grab anything. im so dead
and the whole class had to clean the lab like what??
im not used to my hands being covered tightyly with gloves.sweating.
wish i can ripped off the gloves that instance u know. we had our moments with the mircroscope. lol

saw lots of good-lookin and preety peeps but none i know.
LAH was way luckier i suppose,she saw lots and lots of peeps.good for her.
i think maybe its good that things are that way,on 2nd thought?
cos u see,i dun,i mean i cant really figure out a conversation or whatsoever. just a hello
and smile and dah , bye. heh ..short day tml.yeah.i just finished shopping for my dear
FLIPSY.. her room is all brown! yeah brown,my alltime fave. :]

ok ok, way past 9.30 now.. tink i stop here,wanna watch JIHAN,
eh its nice okie,indon sinetron the actor and actress,fuh.. hahah

till then,

2009-04-19T08:12:00.000-07:00

"When you're young everything feels like the end of the world
But it's not, It's just the beginning"

heeeeh, Zac efron! wuhuuuu! :D
caught the movie 17 again today with my cuzzins and aunts!
Thanx to cik ani for the movie treats! i love it! awesome

today has been tiring but fun, after the movie,i slacked at my aunt house for a while then one by one came,and it started. i ate alot,like seriously alot.
it ended after magrib ,wait for awhile and off to home sweet home

right now,im tired and nervous and super exciting.uh,oh i have night class on my first day?
thats is like super weird
and damn.. i miss FLIPSY.. i havnt been shopping for her.LOL
thats all i guess,nothing much to update on. im just killing time as u can see

oh, i still havnt get over twilight series u know,this whole bella and edward thing?

i've finished reading.was browsing tru the net..
i dunno if this song has sumtin related to the movie or not but its nice.
except the middle? the guitar thing? LOL..thats like too loud for me

till then lovelies

hidden

2009-04-15T05:06:00.000-07:00

Why is it so hard to accept things as they are?
Why do we struggle and fight against the inevitable?
Is it the knowledge that things could be better? Or is it the hope?
The hope that if things were different, they would be different.

okie fine,im stubborn.i dont like being around them.
i feel uneasy.i feel sad.above all,i feel disconnected.disconnected ENTIRELY.geddit?
i find all sorts of excuses everytime just to escape all that till it runs out.

someday,i'll probably understand why such things happens anyway
few years down the road? i dun know. every cloud has a silver lining.isnt it?
i've always feels shitty when it comes to this.

For now,i dun give a hoot.they can do what they want.
i'll do what i want. i have my loved ones;my family,frens, they played far more major role in my life now.

this part,im sorry,cos i know no one understand a single thing what im saying. heee.

k NEXT

these two ladies.* aida,and lah caught in action haah :p

yeah,i went to NYP with them to get my books but some are unavailable?

omg,the feeling is so so dreadful knowing my hectic life gonna starts soon.
but i miss my polymates. hopefully,hopefully,i can get through my entire year2 without any difficulties.
InsyaAllah. the modules are so scary.damn.
education is so hard nowadays.
my adik,fatin amirah bte jasmani,she's sitting for her psle thisyear.

she's the one taking,im the one worrying like hell.-_-

shes having her prelim oral today and i managed to go tru with her both the malay and english ones as a form of practices.i swear my malay is karat now.wahaha.

kie,till then;

kakak FLIPSY again? name tag? ahlerrrrrrrr..

2009-04-12T14:08:00.000-07:00

lets be happy with what we have, and enjoy the beauty in these days.
sometimes we'll laugh, sometimes we'll scream.

no one said caring would be easy.

so i have time for a teeny update before going out yet again
obviously,im not gonna talk much,heee -_-
just pics update,nothing more

just stop wondering;

2009-04-10T20:57:00.000-07:00

im just wondering ,wondering and keep on wondering
so many things can happened within just that stretch of time??? hmmm

ANYWAY, facebook is freaking me out after yesterday.
i'll try, try not to get to attach to it so much though it is impossible at this stage.
totally scares the daylights out of me. anything can happen and it will caught u by surprise
Let's face it,facebook is addictive.truly exciting kan whats with the games,quiz
(yeah i agree some of the quizes are totally retards.lol) and simply some other cool stuffs.

i got a call from dear ain in the morning and she said she got bad news.
my heart nearly drop cos she said it in a slow motion way.
i am like oh no..omg,not now and truly shocked when i heard the shocking news.
i hope nothing like this will happen to anyone again and me.
cos its just so sad.. to simply lost everything..
luckily,Alhamdulilah, evrything went back to its normal.phew.
if not tak best ,if she not in facebook anymore.lol :]

i hope,i hope there's a 4E3 gathering soon! i miss those guys so much.. and seeing all those comments..it feels so good.BUT, i cant find the bee pictures..

that day,we were having math class like normal than suddenly a bee,or a hornet.. idk
just went dash in and disrupt my lesson.wth.. so yeah,the gals were shrieking,the guys were laughing their ass off, zhanrui even took a broom and just smacked it in out.

those moment was one of the funniest of my sch days. one of my classmates even snap
pictures of the whole class.. being funny and all. heh.

i miss that!

okie,okie, i have a few more minutes before going out again.
so far,my morning have been a productive one.. *WINKS

i shall stop here.. till then
:]

The things I can't say are all thinking me insane these days

2009-04-09T01:07:00.000-07:00

"My head was too crazy. The thoughts bounced around inside my skull like a disoriented swarm of bees. Noisy. Now and then they stung. Must be hornets, not bees. Bees die after one sting. And the same thoughts were stinging me again and again."

i think too much these days.gosh..
life's after death & excetra,excetra :(

Anyway,sch's arnd the corner now. damn fast how time flies huh?
bing,bang,boom and VOILA now im in year 2.. omigosh -_-
okie,so i've taken a look at the timetable,yeah,changed again but a feww things excites me..

ive no more 8am class, only 9am and 10am class.. ive night class which ended as late as 9.30pm
no school on tuesday,im having anatomy this sem, & lab is at health sc building..heh.orite
and above all this, i am no more alone when taking mrt,goin sch..
&most of my timetable is similar to LAH.yeay!

this week is damn hectic. im busy busy busy like a bumblebeeeeeeeeeee
been helping mama & ayah with business and stuffs..
i think after looking back all these days,i've no regrets for this holiday

i've done things that is needed to be done;
i met all the peeps which i dearly miss this holiday..
catch up on each other, learning valuable lessons
too many experiences that is- lovely,sweet and bitter and hurtful but this part can go
down the drain.whatever.its life isnt it?

speaking of catching up, i went to ain's sister wedding last sunday.
i didnt have time to update bout it but LAH did.so yeay, the 5 of us finally meet.:)
the wedding was so so omg nice and lovely and all perfect
i want to have a perfect wedding too! haha
and the next day, me and LAH went over to ain's house. our first visit to her NEW house after so long.LOL
we ate "mee batawi" cooked by her grandma. ferst time eating that and superb DELICIOUS lah can?

so yeay-ness!
yay to all the funess!
yay to the day where i get to see all the peeps which i miss
& yay to the day wheere i bumped into peeps unexpectedly but still,they didnt forget me.
Syukur,for this holidays though somedays are not what i would want to go tru ever again.
NOW,IM LOOKING FORWARD TO SCH, TO year 2 ,TO ALOT OF OTHER STUFFS.hee

im so excited.ok,wth -_-

till then,
:]

Assure me it's ok to use my heart and not my eyes

2009-04-02T01:15:00.000-07:00

"I wish I could know if the directions that I take
And all the choices that I make
Won't end up all for nothing
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it

Is there something more than what I've been handed? "

somehow,somwhere,people keep coming in and out of my life
directly, indirectly;

im interlinked with you,and you and her,and him and them and then..ohmygod
funny,funny things now.. am i suppose to laugh or what now.. am i?? small world

bout that other thing,i seriously dont know what to do. havnt you heard?
" not knowing what to do" is the worst kind of suffering -__-
haaah,okie,dont let that spoil my mood now.no,no

-
im still left with one more book/novel whatever u called it and its the LAST book..

and this means what? the ending! BUT my sis have to grab hold of it ferst. :(
i've been having sleepless night for the past few days trying to finish these oh so thick books.
tsk tsk but just when i've came to the final page of book 3, wanting to move on to the nxt finale one
LAH was still reading book4,the final one so now i've to wait and wait for her to finish it up.
irritating.yessh, very iiritating :(

CAUSE I WANT TO KNOW THE ENDING BADLY!!

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah,

i think there's nothing left for me to carry on so yeah i better take a nap now
before preparing for night class later lest i might fall asleep again like last time..
okie,ON THE VERGE of falling asleep.. haha,memalukan ah abeh
finally,weekend is coming,
looking forward to it cause i've plans..wuhuuuu :]

till then,

Everything changes eventually.

2009-03-30T00:32:00.000-07:00

its over,its over,its over

Heeeh,last week's funness is over i guess

Through that hectic week,

from,last sunday all the way till saturady nite yst..

my life was oh so packed but fun heeee

*OH HOLD IT,LONG POST AHEAD!* OKIE ;

SUNDAY ,i met the gals.. AIN and ATIKAH. :)
MONDAY ,lunced at JP with polymates
TUESDAY, helped mum with her curry puff business..rushing rushing but fun
WEDNESDAY ,i had a very short meetup with JASSHIMA :)
lunch-ed over at BANQUET..went to the nearby park after that but leaves started falling all over us just when we stepped in,a way of welcoming us i suppose.TSK* haha.as i expected,few minutes later it rained..like real bad. said goodbyes and home sweet home.kinda short but at least we get to meet,yeay and omg, me and LAH was totally drenched while walking back to the MRT station. THEN, we bumped into ARIF,my long-lost pri sch
fren near our block.okie,so its kinda weird for mecause its been far too
long since i last meet him.im glad though.still the fren i used to know :)
THURSDAY,again,helped mum with her curry puff..rushing rushing but fun
FRIDAY,marina barrage! the scenery was breath-taking lah can?went with,SYASYA,AIDA,TAUFIQ,MATTHEW,JUMALI AND LAHand we played truth or dare in the middle of the roof-whatever-whatever..( i dont know? haha..im not good at remembering direction and places)when it was finally my turn,they ask me one questions which i myself coudnt really answer.LOL.. shy aarghhh.
SATURDAY,yesterday isnt it, i and family attended my cuzzin's engagement.and FINALLY, my mum bought for me a few
"presents".LOLskirts,bag,cardigans,long-sleeved.wuhuu..i love love love ..syukur.thanx mama! :]

BUT i still havnt shopped for my year2 "necessity".NOT ENOUGH..

of cos,i THINK must use my own money lah this time.heh -_-

SO YEAH,all the funness is over,the happiness is over.

MOVING ON TO MY ISSUES NOW,

Its funny the way i see it,one moment i can be so damn happy

and the next moment,i'll be weeping and full of emotionals only God knows why.
told you so,life is full of ups and down,in this case my life..

i did enjoyed the ride,i did sometimes except its not fun

when i have to take the ride alone..

so,when u find urself enjoying, grabbed that moment and enjoyed yourself truly

as much as u can..be grateful

i cant put my words through it
butimissingsomeonerealbadnow uhooohhhh

» C H A O S
my one week getaway... haha

TILL THEN..

2009-03-23T06:54:00.000-07:00

" But some emotions don't make a lot of noise

It’s hard to hear pride

Caring is real faint like a heart beat and pure love,

why, some days it's so quiet,

you don't even know it's there."

my body is aching now.im dead tired.but its worth it.heh :DDD
meet up with my galfrens yesterday and polymates today.

my doa finally dimakbulkan..yay.. syukur

i know.its kinda short and we havnt had the chance to meet shariffa pon but its okie.one day,we'll meet up again.there's always another day :]

meet atikah.the happy go lucky girl who neva fails to make me laugh every sec.haha

didnt know what to do at the wdls lib so we web-cammed.

so sorry that ain hav to study .sorry eh :(

did i tell ya i meet alots lots of woodlands ring sec peeps?

hah,causeway point..standard right?

and i lost count of how many peeps i hugged yesterday.LOL

we gals were at the level 2,u know when u go inside and the entrance door closed

behind u,it was dead silence,deafening like totally shut off..??

so all the while when we wanna talk to each other,our voice will be like so timid..

so hush. i laugh in the middle of sentence .tsk.. muka atikah punyelah confident berbual cam we two like kindergarten kids like that.

part ni,i cant take it, i actually choke and roar into laughter..

(me->)"mcm ner nak buat muka bodoh? aku tak tau ambik gambar pose muka bodoh."

"how to make a stupid face? idk how to pose a stupid face"

tskk.. -_-

and then,there's my retarded polymates who neva fail to make my day :]

lunch at jurong point and hangout at mccafe with ghost stories and gossips one after another ohhhh,duhh,fooling arnd with the hp cam too.LOL

kie dah..hehhehehe :]

Fnally,i've the complete sets for my all time favourite series..

wuhuuu :DDD till then;

2009-03-22T06:17:00.000-07:00

today has been great.too great that is :]
thanx besties.. sayang korang sumer.

i'll update tml okie?

now,im dead tired...

hahah :]

2009-03-17T20:33:00.000-07:00

"the girl felt jealous of the freedom of the wind
and saw that she could have the same freedom..if only; "

sighs this is not an update.this is not an update.just venting things out.

i dont know
is this how a 17yr old girl suppose to feel like now?
trapped.confined.confused.

right now, I'm at the point in my life where things are neither good or bad.
They could be better, but they could be worse and I can't look at anything
with a purely pessimistic or optimistic point of view.sigh,tell me something i dont know?
the way i see it now, that happiness is fleeting..
this is so frustrating, so so so frustrating.FRUSTRATING.
part and parcels of life? tsk :/

ANYWAY,results out. and syukur Alhamdulilah.i passed.my GPA improve alot.wuhuu.
Ya Allah,me and my kentalness,i didnt know they computed my last sem GPA with this sem 's
so yeah i was like eh? why i took alot of modules all of a sudden huh this sem?
when i see the results than i remembered a fren saying that they plus the last sems' too..hahaha
i've achieved my goal but still,i think there's room for improvement .kan? kan? :]

im so scared now,i think my wisdom tooth is growing back there
they are all scaring me with stories and operation..ooooemmmmgeeeeeee
macam nak tumbuk jer muka satu-satu..hahahha :P

adik,u promise oreadi :p

ALL OF A SUDDEN,i miss chatting with some people.gosh
okielah,i guess im off now to do other stuffs.. till then

BME PEEPS,PLEASE VISIT THE BME BLOG???

http://www.bmeconnect.blogspot.com/

2009-03-12T03:01:00.000-07:00

i cant believe i went out with u ahhh!

hahahha

yah,

spent my day today with this pinky gal here.

nothing much

just did some errands.Thought of going shopping but alerrrr last minute back out

came across this store and then idk why or what we were thinking

went in.

walk-in interview but nahhhh,no job vacancy.never mind luh.

but i love the way the person in charge talked to us.so nice like that. rreally a nice person :]

but ,i still have the other option.

yeah, the waiting has finally ended for me yesterday.

phew.syukur Alhamdulilah.

MOE approved it.now the only problem lies with me

whether im gonna do it or not.

lazy.lazy.lazy

been tired these days doing all sorts of random stuffs.

♥ ♥ ♥
i miss these dear gals fren of mine.

NORAIN YAKEEN ,NUR ATIKAH SHAFTEE,SHARIFFA ALOYAH

2009-03-09T23:57:00.000-07:00

hello hello

okie,here's the thing.

Im bored

seriously,insanely,critically B O R E D

1 week had past and i've been waiting and waiting endlessly

either that or i've to work with my dad.oh no.i dont want.

how? help? anyone? please?
*sobs :(

the waiting is so depressinglah..

Anyway,life's been good,ALHAMDULILAH

thanx for askin.hahas

heh,cute stuffs
i can laugh till my stomach hurts chattin with my fren online
we talked about the past.pri schools stories.LOL
trust him to remember all that.

oh well,here are the development in my life

as of this holiday:

1) WAITING since last week.the one last thing i prefered doing

which of cos i cant.
bleah. Currently,im still waitin for aproval.

2) i think my mum want to marry me off since evryday i've to learn skills
* slaps my forehead. okie,maybe not.wahahha.

but i hate doin housechores,
im already picturing myself doing housechores every single day,

waitin (OMG waitin again)
on family, few years later down the road.

okie,that's so not going to happen. kan? kan?
im gonna carved out a career ferst.no harm daydreaming :D

3)TILL NOW,i havent been shopping

4)TILL NOW,I havent caught a movie yet and i doubt i will.

5)TILL NOW,i havent heard any news from some people.
how are they,what they doin now

6) AND TILL NOW,i havnt grown vertically.i meant my height.hehehhe.
The last time i checked,i was 2cm taller than last sem. but whatever.
i have no problem with that.heels can help."Kak,kena bersyukur,tak baik tau cam gini"
Hah kau. yes yes, im happy as i am now :)

7) i've been smiling and smiling and laughing cause i just get to know from the radio
one time u frown,10 times of something something will occur than
aftermath, there will be wrinkles. so yeah.keep smiling okie?

8) i've been observing people.(nothing to do izit? ) hahah.yeah.crazeeeeeeeeeeeee

9) i've been missing my grandma.i went to her house last weekend
but i didnt get to see her cos she went shopping with my aunties :(

10)LAST,as of now,i've been missing all the littlest things in life

i think i caught the bug flu or something.

as im typing these words out,i've been sneezing non-stop.

and my nose is damn red now like rudolp's nose like that

and it hurts like hell and i think im goin drowsy now

cause the view from my vision is so blurry

am i falling sick? am i? am i?

2009-03-06T01:00:00.000-08:00

it's when i'm feeling so tired of trying any harder
when i'm so discouraged to an extent i'm crushed
when no one understands

im in a dilemma now :/
Its like i cant possibly make both parties happy at the same time right.
That's ridiculous! right?

its so tiring..DAMN tiring.
i dont want to hurt anybody in this case.
I tried not to in this whole process/ scenario/drama whatever u called it
but why,why is it that im finding myself hurting in the end?
did anyone care about my feelings?
wth

not an update just venting things out

its okie,im used to all this anyway.
things gonna be fine one day.yeah ONE DAY.hopefully

Night class just now was fun as ever.awesome.syukur.
i love the laughing section with ustaz and relatives..

On top of that, i get a whistlet/pouch bag from my aunt,cik ani..wuhooo.
its pinkish red which makes its look like ruby??nyehahahaha

i guess,
im opening up my livejournal soon but it shall remained SEMI private.
That is, some of the post's unviewable
i need a little space of my own.one of the reason why i did it

things will be better.it will be better one day.InsyaAllah :)

STAY POSITIVE!!

yeah rite

till then :)

2009-03-04T06:16:00.000-08:00

"Is it me or did I just get lucky?"

awesome.watched it yesterday night.heh

mcfly..woots*

im bored now

waiting..and waiting and still waiting

2009-02-28T06:23:00.000-08:00

In order to gain something, i’ve to lose something in return.

AND this, let me tell ya, must be some kind of joke.

Like somebody is pulling a prank on me..

and i admit,the feeling is far more worse than having ur laptop confisticate for a day

or not getting ur favourite latest handphone which u’ve been eyeing for ages last minute because simply ur parents said so.

Maybe,just maybe all this is coincidence,maybe it's fate.

I don’t know .But what i know now , at least the storm is over ,

i can see sunshine coming my way. Syukur Alhamdulilah. :]

After yesterday,I’ve never felt a sense of freedom and joy for so long.

Okie well after Wednesday ,since its over.My Sem’s 1 over and sch’s out.
Asked the gals to come over early to my house to cook the meeeeeeee.

They know how to get here. so unbelievable.heh, kiddin only luh.

My mum was generous and helpful to cook the fried rice for us

and she marinated the chicken wings too..i've to thanked her for that :]

Okie well,the cooking part..hahahhahaa... not bad. Turns out nice..

LOL funny funny gals..

Poonam’s dad fetch us since alot of stuffs was at my house and off we go to ECP.
Oh yeah,i did cycle after so long.. like FINALLY.. For that 2 hours, we cycled to the end of ECP but too bad, must go off before night falls.

i’ve promised my parents already :(

but never mind luh, at least get to enjoy the whole day .

sad thing is, i didn’t saw the rest of the BME peeps. They came too late i guess.

There 's so many happy memories be it short or what. i wanted to type here and just type but then i can make a novel out of it.

so heh, shall remained it in my head till whenever

when i was there,somehow,i'm reminded bout my wrss frens.

a year ago,we went there and there's so much fun

i missed them already now..i wanna see them like sooon

believe it or not.

Yesterday's bbq was 27 Feb 2009

and the pix taken below?

it was on 27 DECEMBER 2007

hhhhmmmmm coincidence?

oh man

At around 12.3o am, i get all those smses .I m like falling asleep already and u guys said all that sad thing. it kinda weird but i did smile. Luv y’all.u guys rocks! Next sem!!!yayhaaa

Alright, lets not get into the details .pictures time. Till then

till then :]

2009-02-23T21:51:00.000-08:00

PROBABLY

probably im insane to stick in front of this screen since just now

instead of studying what's left for manufac tml..

haha.whatever

so it rained.its been a whilekan?

and suddenly a sudden change in the weather.blessin in disguise.syukur

im like goin crazy running around the house trying aimlessly to shut the windows pane.

& im all alone, &parents working,& sistas schooling. suddenly the house became dark. real dark

i wannna complain!

okie,so her last paper is today. not fair.

probably enjoyin herself with sya and aida now at bras basah.. i wanna go too.. :(

hmmmpft.

haahahah, and i cant belive i blurt out those words yesterday...

eeeeeee,malunyer

so shy sia

im nver gonna do that ever again.. malu betul

but im proud that i said it,

love ya mama n ayah

hehhehe

truth be told,i hate you.truth be told,im lying :(

2009-02-21T21:26:00.000-08:00

Where you used to be, there’s a hole in the world,
.
which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling into at night.
.

I've been on the tip of the edge once.

I don't wanna fall all over again this time.

right,i miss u like hell now.

.
.

everyday. everyday is the same.

i've been livin in some kind of routine lately and i totally detest it.

doing house chores makes me sick and studying doesnt enlighten me.

its getting bored.REAL bored and i dont like it.My mood's been changing.

my hair's arent straight anymore cos i keep pullin.my eye's becomin damn puffy.

i slept at 3 am and wake up at 6am.Tell me how can i not get angry?

i get pissed off even at the slightest thing on sight.

Everything that surrounds me pissed me off.

Yeah seriously but they didnt end up as my punching bag though.

and by this i meant my siblings.

my life.some kind of roller-coaster rides.haah yeah.

Seems like im just started to notice how noticeably bad,

things really are now..

nevermind,3 more days and soon all this gonna dissapear,vanished, gone.

or simply burried down the cemetry.

my disastrous mood,my disastrous routine and my disastrous feelings.

haha

right,i better get back to my mechanics now..

Tml's my mech sems exam

halfway done i guess.

this topic..it sucks and i tell ya im suck at it.

and to make matter worse,i hav to learn this suckish subject in yr 2 again.

even deeper.

im sorry i've been complaining

cos i noe there's others who had to go tru far more worse than me.Ya Allah,im sorry

u dunno ,u dunt even have the slightest clue wat im goin tru now

and this hurts like hell

Tell me,how can i not be angry and confused at the same time..

i feel like watching " confession of a shopaholic" now but for that,

i've to wait till march.

so loooooooooooong like that.

till then

2009-02-17T22:18:00.000-08:00

oh. em. gee. I miss blooooggin big time...

haah..

yup,i know.im still on examination period. 1 down 2 more to go
stressful luh now. no damn damn stressful ahh can?
There's even this one time i wish i could stand on the edge of this highest peak in the world where there’s no one else except me and all i could think of and do up there was to scream my lungs out. just scream and vent out all my unhappiness ,stressness, secret whatsoever.

pathetic

Right now ,i feel like going back to being a little kid again.i donno how many times i repeat this but Yeah seriously.Imagine.just imagine when happiness was just only a cookie away..
Lol.wth

I wanted some change

I’ve thought of moving to LJ.

i’ve oreadi got an acc but nothing much did i update there.nothing at all.
I’ve thought of using back my multiply site but then i’tll be just me there upating.
I’ve even thought of changing my link or even worse private-ing this blog but alerrr what stop me from doing all this now is my fickle-fickle minded mind.it keep changing direction u see.

For the meantime, shall stick with this yeap.

These days,my days so far haven’t been really good.
There’s been alot of ‘what if’s’ in my mind.

At this point of my life,
I dunno who’s being true,who’s being not.
Who’s my real frens are.
u could list a whole lots of names on ur friend list
but then again,how many can u count on. this is reality i guess
I dun know

I’ve a feeling, i oreadi loosing some.

All i wanted to say now is that i’ve never change. im still the gal few years back.

But, im thankful to God i have some who i can rely on,laugh together and all that stuff..Syukur Alhamdulilah
People been mistakenly assume that im such a perfectionist.
im sick of that.and i hate that.

Dreadful sia
I miss texting and chatting now.

I've been tagged by Jasshima :D since im bored,i'll do this

TEN ARE YOUS

1. Are you single – haha.yeap.single-mingle
2. Are you happy – u mean now? I guess
3. Are you bored – no
4. Are you fair – hmmm..am i? idk
5. Are you Italian – nope luh dey
6. Are you intelligent – should be.hahha
7. Are you honest – err..yeah
8. Are you nice – i am NICE!
9. Are you Irish – no.NEXT!
10. Are you Asian – AH! YESSSS!!

TEN FACTS

1. Full Name – NUR KHALIDAH BTE JASMANI
2. Nicknames – idah,khalidah,art-buddy..got luh some more..too shy to say
3. Birth place - KKH ..
4. Hair color - black.
5. Natural hair style – STRAIGHT!! I want curls.curls is SEXY.wuhoo.lol kidding onli
6. Eye Color - black.
7. Birthday – 14thSEPTEMBER
9. Favorite color – BROWN!!
10. One place you'd like to visit – aderluh

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE

1. Have you ever been in love - hmm, ya.
2. Do you believe in love at first sight – hahah nahhhhh
3. Do you currently have a crush? – no.not crush..
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally - ya
5. Have you ever broken someone's heart – ya i guess
6. Have you ever had your heart broken - ya.
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them - hahahhaha
8. Are you afraid of commitment - depends.
9. Who was the last person you hugged - hahah. Lalalalallala my sis
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? – heh

TEN THIS OR THAT

1. Love or lust - LOVE
2. Hard liquor or beer - none.
3. Cats or dogs - cats !
.4. A few best friends or any regular friends - a few best friends
5. Creamy or Crunchy - creamy
6. Pencil or Pen - pen
7. Wild night out or romantic night in - depends
8. Money or Happiness – both can?
9. Night or day – both can?
10. IM or phone - hmm, for the last time..BOTH can ornot?

TEN HAVE YOU EVER

1. Been caught sneaking out - i don't think so.
2. Seen a polar bear - DUH
3. Done something you regret - yep.
4. Bungee jumped –NO.NEVER IN MY ENTIRE LIFE will i try that
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor – YUCKS..
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker – what????
7. Been caught naked - LOL.NOOOOO
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back - hmmmm
9. Cried because you lost a pet – i’ve never had one.allergic
10. Wanted to disappear - yeah.NOW

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER

1. Smile or eyes – can i have BOTH
2. Light or dark hair -depends.
3. Hugs or kisses - lol.????
4. Shorter or taller - TALLERRRRR! Yes TALLLLEERRR than me
5. Intelligence or attraction - hahah. both ?
6. Topman or Zara - hmm
7. Funny or serious - funny! And at the sametime serious
8. Older or Younger – SAME AGE AS ME can?
9. Outgoing or quiet - outgoing .
10. Sweet or Bad - sweet and nice and loving and caring more J

TEN HAVE YOUS

1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - yup
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour - yup
3. Ever tried walking on your hands - no
4. Ever been to a rock concert - no
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team – dunno eh if that counted,
6. Ever been on a dance team - ya
7. Ever been on a sports team –omg sports? NO!
8. Ever been in a drama play/production – ya.act out in lit and malay class
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? – NO
10. Ever been in a rap video? - nope. Like OMG?

TEN LASTS

1. Last phone call you made –No.. they call me instead.
2. Last person you hugged – my SISTA!
3. Last person you hung out with -idiotic clique :D
4. Last time you worked – heh,no
5. Last person you talked to - my sister.
6. Last person you IM'd - lots of peeps
7. Last person you texted – Xiao Qian haha
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with – Aida and Lah
9. Last person/thing you missed - lots.
10. Last website visited – Playlist.com

TEN PEOPLE TO DO THIS

Anyone can do this.. :D

I keep fumbling for the right words

2009-02-03T05:25:00.000-08:00

Seaching for some kind of sign to begin
Caught in your world, now I'm turned around
Now that you've got me lost then found

I'm looking and you're looking
I'm looking and you're looking
I'm looking and you're looking
Now that you got me lost then found..
Lost then found, lost then found, lost then found

i know i've been taking things for granted.
now that i've finally found it back,
i must learn to apreciate things arnd me
i dun know what's the outcome of it but for now,
i just hope everything,everything in my life
goes well and smooth in the days to come.InsyaAllah

cos u see,many things are running through my head now. like damn lotz.
this whole lot of confusion here.
but somehow,above all this mess and stress
and whatsoever,there's awaes someone who will make me smile each day.
my sis,my dad,mum..dotdotdot hahha

yesterday i had this serious talk with Lah bout my education life.
well yes, first it lead to this,then to that,then to that again,then suddenly back to this
and yes i did come to a conclusion but shall not say here..

one thing for sure,i shall not give up.
cos i believe,there's a reason why im in this path
and one of them is to meeet all those wonderful idiotic classmates of mine.all 3 classes hehhehe

except i havent really found the real reason behind it yet luh.
maybe someday?

okie,did i tell ya dat this week was sucha crazy week? CRAPPY crappy week like urghhh
Today was totally a disaster.okie ooops i forgot bout tuesday too
ON tues,i have two test, german and biomaterials and its one after another.
manage-able? well,yes but there's something wrong with my brain that day.heh.
i didnt study fully for the MCQ so what i did was to play the guessin game.
tsk.tsk

And today,Comp programmin as well as Molecular & biotech like god..
ferst paper start at 8.30am and next paper at 4.30pm. in between?
7 hours of break sia and i stayed at sch. -_-
the fact that the rest stayed behind too really brighten up my day.
We had this so called mini celebration fer JJ,Jumali and Sally's bdae today.
Thought of havin that on barbecue day but yeah,sadly, sally cant make it that

day itself so haaah, its kinda weird at the same time damn exciting
esp when the tearing of present came. ^^

somehow,i missed the gals..and thats really a sad thing :(
i have like one more week before Sem exam starts..must chiong real hard now..

okie well, im off now

till then

PS:Jasshima, i'll do the tag soon kie :))

:DDD

2009-01-31T00:41:00.000-08:00

YESTERDAY WAS JUST PLAIN TIREDNESS

Daaang.. i've had the most awful day ever
except during CNC test.

Its Fridayyet i spent the whole day at sch.
what a life -_-

Cp tutorial was kinda a waste of time.
For me,i guess. haah,fullstop

Speaking of test,lotsa test cumin up
but im not gonna worry my head off bout it.
Worrying doesnt make my life better.
maybe,studying will help but heck yeah..
i get to noe this from ain.
stu-dying makes student dying. geddit?
and congrats,im on the verge of dying
everytime i see that piles of notes

....

i survived CNC test yesterday with the help of my classmates
Did i tell ya Mr Wong is the best lecturer i ever had in my current poly days? he gave us distinction.And the test yesterday?
Well,its suppose to be a test but we like sort of communicate
to get help from each other.

and haah, kai,shairi,illyas and eugene help me with it.
i did noe how to start but the pathetic thing is,i didnt now how to end.
so ferst few minutes,i only communicate with poonam.
im like,oh god..wth all the way
than after that,i looked up and shairi gave me his paper
and i did what i did.
i noe i noe..

than arcthur turned back and was like panicking. "Idah,how to do ahh"
since,people help me,i help peeople back.so hahahha.he copied mine.
in the end, evrybody.EVERYBODY was copying each other.
thats the fun part

alerrrrr okie i dont wanna talk bout studies anymore ahhh.
headache okie

so yeah,last wednesday,went to Matt's house for the CNY celeb.
it's great and his parents are cool all the way.

.....

i was like on the verge of sleeping from reading the notes
and so i went facebook-ing. it helps than i get bored and went to a site where they give very funny definition for all kinds of words.and yes,
ain introduced it to me cos there's one time,
she was showing me the definition of "Army of skanks" and then i laughed.

i typed facebook and this is what i get.

its random.. just take it as a pinch of salt yeap?

1. facebook
the reason my papers are never done on time.
need to write report = facebook time!

2. facebook
WARNING: The new addictive drug that has devastatingly hit
most colleges, universities, and highschools.
The drug causes lasting effects: procrastination, swollen fingers,
dropped grades, irritation of the eyes, increased need to add more friends to your friends list, and skipped classes. Be cautious, some think they are immuneto the effects of facebook, until they try it and by then its too late. Protect Yourselves. Know a friend thats hooked on facebook? Call this toll free hotline: 1-800-ILVFCBK,we have professionals ready to help you.

3. shyPod
When one is hesitant about sharing the contents of
his or her iPod.
Because Doug downloaded Britney Spears' "Toxic" he was
totally shyPod when Dru wanted to take a peek at his Library.

4. army of skanks
the group of girls that follow another, more cool girl
around.

Yolanda is general of my army of skanks. Nicole is private second class. Jackie may be new, but is learning quickly and is well on her way to an upper-level authority position in my army of skanks.

5. army of skanks
a word females use to describe themselves
to attempt to make people jealous and cover up the fact they have no boyfriend-life whatsoever

6.hotmail
A mailing system delivered by Microsoft
that gives you spam on toast in the morning and then feeds you junk in the evening.

Alex: Dude, I keep receiving fresh spam all the time in my
hotmail account
Ben: It's called Hot-Mail for a reason - it serves freshly cooked spam all day long.
Alex: My bad

i cant wait when that day comes..
someone's gonna be an NYP-ian nxt sem :DDD

falling,falling,falling

till then

2009-01-26T22:49:00.000-08:00

I feel good today and that's a good thing. :)

.
Eveything is going so so slow arnd here

okie some pics before i update

yeaps.i want holiday to come soon!

currently hook to this blogsong.

well,if u dont like,u can just put it to a stop.haha. i dont care

SO i was suppose to go to East Coast yesterday for the CNY gathering

but what to do, i've to clean up the other room which been like horrendously

filled up with tons of cardboards for months. Oh yeap,i made friends with

spiders,such a cute little creature NOT! and dun forget the cobwebs and all.

like yucks. Yucks with a capital Y.

i supposed to not going back to sleep after dawn

but i fell asleep only to wake up at 9.30am -_-

and ya Allah,(my God)

as soon as i was up,the hall was full of stuffs.

Okie,so wat my sis said days ago came true too.

She said she feels like moving out

and that instance i felt as if i was gonna moved house too.

The whole family was busy packing stuffs and all the whole day.

so this is like spending family quality time tgt i guess?

Lol.wth. thats how i spent my CNY

i didnt regret not going to east coast cos i had fun..okie maybe a little?

TODAY? well see below

yeap boring but im good

i get to eat PIZZA!! Yayness

Thanx ayah and mama! i hope better day are coming InsyaAllah :)

i heard the sad news yesterday and i dunno.. i fell a lil bit lost?
Please dun leave us yeap?
i noe ur reading this.I hope u'll think tru with ur decision..
whateva ur choice is in the end,we'll be here supporting u but
hopefully,u wont leave us. i havnt had enough of ur crazinees yet girl :(

till then peeps

2009-01-25T06:25:00.001-08:00

I think everyday is made up of tiny
little tests. Some are tests of character.
Some are tests of fortitude. Others are
tests of friendship. And if you're persistent enough,
when it really matters, you'll
pass with flying colors.

GOD WILLING ,InsyaAllah

You know,there is a crack in everything that's how the light gets in. ....

Right now, i just hope i'll passed my Sem Exams with flying colours

and than find something meaningful to do on the holidays. :D

Whoever invented Computer Prgrmmin? Its makin my life upside down.like seriously.ahhhh yeahhhhhhh

okie,so tml CNY? Right,i wanna wish my chinese fren a HAPPY happy happy CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

oh yeah, why is butter so expensive nowadays huh? shucks,3 bucks seh

okie,thats is so so random.

im outta here.. till then lovelies :DD

2009-01-21T06:14:00.000-08:00

Because I don't know what I am doing now,
and I won’t try to act like im okie with it because I sure heck not.
and I'll admit that I don't know,i dont know just where I'm going
on this long and winding road that's taking me...

I don't think i am strong enough to do this much longer. God,I wish I was stronger.

Things can't get much weirder now, this can't get much worse.

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im not really feeling down or what now.

Seems like im feeling nothing at all.like numb.

so numbed to the extreme that im emotion-less to my whole surrounding.

okie,that's a lie but hahh,shall we skipped that?

Anyway,

i had a very CRAZY WEDNESDAY

surrounded with CRAZY MATES learning CRAZY COMPUTER PROGRAMMIN STUFFS almost the entire of my CRAZY TIME in sch???

i think im getting immune to that subject ahhh.

Very baddd since i've semestral project under that. gosh .Good thing im working with Poonam!

Tml is H3 turns for the Oral Comm Presentation thingy.I did mine last sem and i survived! Alhamdulilah :)

and today huh,someone super high seh in class, i wonder what come over him..till give out new names to the rest of the classmates..indian names somemore which lemme repeat.

I DUN LIKE IT AHHH..u beta stop calling me that hor! grrrr

okie,till here i think..

i just lost quite a sum of money in pet society

cause of my impulsive buying..so sad

Gosh,imagine if this is reality..wahh seyy

till then :D

2009-01-20T04:53:00.000-08:00

Welcome to the real world now...

i dunno eh.

Is it just me or what?

I realised i've been neglecting this blog of mine eversince then.

Today was just like any other day,

except i think i am waaay lucky to survive my german oral and biomaterial presentation today.its actually one after another.syukur. (:

Run into a few someones i know today.Bumped into atikah,faizal and hasif

and all of us were in the same cabin, didnt talk much but got to know that

atikah took nursing and today was already her 2nd day?

Cool seh.Good for her (:

I have been living in some kind of routine lately and I can't say that I enjoy it. After I managed to get out of my bed--it is getting harder and harder lately,lemme tell u that-- then I got ready for school only to come home around 5pm. Schools suck as ever but heck yeah,im surrounded with crazy friends so i guess its not that bad afterall. My mum kept emphasizing that its not good to whine and complain all day so i shut up after that instance but this doesnt keep me from whining and complainin to my lil sis. haha. She just go ya ya yahhhhh...

My conducts hadsnt been reaaly good.

I didnt came to sch yesterday simply because i think i caught the bug flu or something and then monday morning, i was halfway preparing for school when i started seeing zig zag all arnd my surrounding. i felt weird all of a sudden,u know the kind whereby u feel cold on d outside but inside u feel hot,extreme hot. So i called my mum and dad at work that i'll be skipping sch and they dont believe me when i said im sick -_- till after they get home and hahah,once again, i can ordered my siblings about.i love it u noe when im sick cause i hardly get to do this on other days.Not that i asked to be sick awaes or what luh.. AND okie, its damn boring to stay at home on a sch's day ahhhhh.so so boring

Then today,i skipped maths lesson cos of the biomaterial thingy.

maths is oh so sian...

oh yeah,i dont like little boys when they cried cos they can be a little monster.haha.random but yeah,this morning,the whole block was awaken by this little boy cries.Irritating, if he were my brother,i think i'll do something bad at him in return.Somemore around 5am whereby im still trying to catch a good nice sleep .. And he never stops crying and shouting until an hour later.let me emphasize this..SHOUTING. i really cant take it that i burried myself under the blanket with two pillows over my head.

okieee, i think im off now to whateva whateve.

idk what i shud do nxt.heh

Till then,

:DDD

2009-01-17T08:16:00.000-08:00

I'd like to say goodbye to a complicated mind
But when I walk and wave, I'm stalked all day
Now im calling the time.Time to get away.
Lets escape from here...

Lazyness and tiredness are taking a toll on me

exams coming and i think im not ready for it

And

Today is probably the worst day ever i had to face.

i was emotionally and physically sick

and to lost someone u cherish is hurtful enough..

i coudnt force myself to look for one final time

Semoga dia ditempatkan di kalangan orang orang beriman.Amin

i think im falling sick now.

The weather hasnt been really great.To me that is.

one moment i feel as if i was placed in an ice refrigerator

and the next moment i was like at the Sahara desert. And to finally remember that i had german oral and biomat presentation this tues doesnt make things better at all..Ahhhh

i wanna runaway from here

like seriously

damn

such a disaster...

2009-01-10T23:31:00.000-08:00

Just a calendar day.

It's funny how thing can stay the same or drastically change.

Some things seem so close and some days seem so far away.

okie well,

H E L L O O O O O ! ! !

im gonna keep this short and sweet.

I know its been forever since i last updated.
Well,life's been hectic lately..

i was involved in the NYPopen house..
err,i dont like it except the part where i could catch a glimpse at taufik batisah singing.he's so hot..haha well,the rest no comment ahh.
it was fun initially but things get a lil bit off the next minute.
was tired all the way.while i was tour-guiding the visitors,it suddenly dawned on me how i used to do this same old thing back then during my St John days..i missed this.i know. im a sentimental person if u dont already know that.LOL

my duty was at 10.30am till 2.30pm but i stayed on till 6.follow frens.lol

arnd5.30pm we hang out at this fitness area near SIT school to escape duty.finally 6pm arrive and haaahh,report to them and signed off.

nice place huh,im on top of water
*

random shoot.excited to the max

there;s more but im llike lazy to uoload heereee

actually right,my point of updating this is not to rant bout the openhouse.

i didnt even came for the next day duty 5pm till 9pm cos im simply tired.

so i ran away. i wondered how im gonna answer my german tcher for my absence this tues. heh,gonna worry that later

Yesterday!

i wanna talk bout yesterday lah!

went to have dinner with family and mum's side at Malaysia.

nice nice food. and i did some shopping

haha.shopped for what? shopped for tudungs,huhuhu!

Funny thing happened.

i bumped into Sharmin!All the while in facebook,he said hope to bump into we twin one day then suddenly we met.

in a funny environment at a funny time.LOL

and u know what?

by the time i reached home,it was 2am in the mornning
and my whole body was aching and shaking
i wanna go there again some day.with lots and lots and lots of money.

oh yeah,i;ve came to a conclusion that that that...

*my parents gonna screwed me now

if i didnt switched off this comp this min.

alright im off now to study mechanics..

till then.

:)))

Good luck for the judment day tml olevel peeps!

wish u guys a thousand good lucks! :)

indifferent can either be good or bad

2009-01-03T02:56:00.000-08:00

Currently,I'm in a certain shade of indifferent.
Nothing reaally matters that much to me now.heeehh :D

---->> taken during last day of 2008 :)

SO far,life's been moderately great only to some extent
that i cant help but to thank God for every minute that's passing by.
First week of school passed by just like that and sooner or later,im gonna be in year 2. Tons of exams and assigments plus presentation awaits me. but haah,im gonna worry bout that later.Okie heck,i know procrastination is very very bad so im trying to work out on this bad habit of mine slowly..

Anyway,yesterday's was probably the most slackiest day ever for my ferst week of sch.Most of my classmate didnt turned up.i could like count those who present with my hand.yeah? yeah,exactly. Manufacturing class was the best. We were like fooling around and being lame all the while when Mr wong was questioning us. He was going tru with us bout the CNC codes during lab.(Machinary codes and blablabla) and this is what we did. hahah. Tsk.tsk.tsk

Mr wong: Poonam,what's M1 stand for?
(* He meant the codes actually.)
Poonam: M1 huh? It stands for the M1 phone shop ahh..
(*sumtin like thaat.cudnt recalled the exact woRds)
than,mr wong asked this someone something and he cudnt asnswer.
i was like laughing the minute Mr wong said this,"Ahhh,daydreaming !"
idk.i just find it funny
and then the next moment caught me by surprise.
He asked me instead.i was like oh noooo, how uh? the rest look at me with this sly face. i know what they r thinkin but whateva! hahah
Luckily yanling was seated next to me and she came to my rescue Lesson Learnt.Dun laugh at people. hahaha

oh yeah,there's more..
My lecturer was saying something bout how we must print the notes
ourselves instead of him printing it and givin to us weekly. Just when he was bout to give out the notes,poonam asked how to print.
AND,he replied, downstairs... ahhahahahs,when in actual fact,what poonam meant was how to print the notes when we dun hav the soft copy. LOL

Im hookup to facebook..Lol. Thats FLIPSY. CUTE rite??
and that's flipsy house..NICE rite? And yes people,thats my coins..pathetic rite? i noe..

Haaha,but i had fun..i noe what u people are thinkin but whateva..hehe

okie,that's it .till then.
Haris and ira are here...double YAY!

:DDD

The cost of misery is at an all-time high.

2009-01-01T07:51:00.000-08:00

I keep it hidden. Close to the surface, inside...

Emotions are running wild now.Today havn't been really great.

Im sad,angry,disapointed...all the while,i've put on a brave front,for their sake

but it hurts through and through on the inside.i didnt start my 2009 with a big bang

like what i've been longing for all this while but nevermind, it could be worse than that...

heh,okie,see, i've side-tracked.

Anyway,Happy new year to u guys out there.

May u have a blessed year ahead yeah.No new year resolutions this year

simply cause i either couldnt follow it or couldnt catch up.

im just gonna go with the flowwwww..

This songs nice.i rarely listen to malay songs.LOL.

The lyrics nice,like my situation now..heeeh. :(

Right here we go,

2008 was a year whereby i felt as if i was in a roller-coaster ride of trial and tribulations

all year long but nonetheless i did feel grateful and contented with what i've gone through

so far.Beginning of the year, i was stuck between choosing the M.I route or the poly route.

i chose poly and there and then, i met those crazy bunch classmates of mine.

i shall say that their presence do make a difference to my life.

of course i do miss my previous life but thanx to them,

my days in poly have never been bad nor akward.

and i nearly lost my galfrens cum bestbestfren..

cos of distance,commitment,peer pressure,dramas..all those stuffs

i must confessed,nothing's worse than losing ur friends.

Thankfully,syukur,we talked things through.letting it all out.

AND now? we are still like before.Love u gals.

InsyaAllah,our frenship will last long.Amin.

and,haah,my heart is still as stubborn as ever but whatever.

truth be told,i really miss you.

.last but not least special thanx to all the people who hav come across my life so far.

thanx u guys for making my life interesting.LOL!

oh yeah,right now,my family and loved ones are my ferst priority.

so i shall spend more time with them.

AND,im gonna make my parents proud one day.heeehh

kie,shall end here,till then :))

i didnt realised today is christmas eve.LOL

2008-12-24T01:45:00.000-08:00

I'm unbelievably freaking excited because...
shockingly, one of my prayers was finally answered.YAY! Syukur.Alhamdulilah. :)

craving for chocolates..craving for alot of things.

Right,TAGGED is boring haahh,to me that is

so i deleted my account the next day.
Facebook is getting more and more exciting.in fact,im hook-up to pet society.

u know, at exactly 2.44am today,another weirdo disturbed the whole of my family,calling in askin for fatin,my youngest sis and than hanged up. LIKE what kan? early morning disturbed my sleep.my heart was like beating cos usually,wheni get phonecalls early morning, it'll be something bad,something unexpected like death news or along with that.usually lah but it
doesnt happened for along time (syukur) till this morning. urghhhhh

alaaaaaaaa,oh oh,

everytime i post,my mum will fixed something nice and yummy. Heh,unfortunately,i,nur khalidah bte jasmani can resist anything except temptation to eat mum's food so yeah.im off now.

there my post,short and sweet. Till then.

the new classic in you

2008-12-23T04:30:00.000-08:00

think i found the new classic in you,

it's become so hard for me to be surprised

but you're bringing back the real me,

no judgement in your eyes...

-another cinderella story (Drew -New classic)

i watched these movies twice! omg.freaking awesome luh can?

the uniform is niceeee,the actor and actresses.ahhhh.and the dance moves is a killer.well for Another Cinderella story that is.&the soundtacks r damn cool anwae..

well,i guess im in a position whereby im a lil bit high and full of randomness today.
Oh wait.no,i mean right now,at this very moment.heehh.:) Thats explain why i joined facebook and tagged all of a sudden,random huh?
just ignore the previous post okie? i swear i wasnt thinking straight and was all down and low hence that post. im fine now.no worries.

and omg,i still donno how facebook works.haha.poke here poke there ,wall to wall and stuffs.kept chuckling to myself after seeing such stuffs.my page is pathettic though... Movie double date,i finally get some fresh air and vitamin D after 2 days of cooping inside my room doin nothing.ahaahhaz..i feel alive all of a sudden.and thanx u guys,i did enjoy the day. :D

okie,mom and sis are back.i smelled food.wohhoo...

one word. FAMISHED
till then. :)))

2008-12-21T02:24:00.000-08:00

. . . I f e e l l i k e c r a p n o w. . .

i dunno how im gonna vent this out entirely.Its so painful yet at d same time disappointing.
This is not what i wanted.All this while I’ve been giving in to people so much till im not sure whether what im doin is right or wrong but did they care bout my own feelings?
i doubt so.This is too much kie.too much.i give up.well,almost on the verge of givin up.

my holiday sucks far more worse than any other people.
i should hav seen this coming ahhhhhh buh nahhh, im still grateful though.
now,i cant wait to go back sch.yeah.true,im not kidding.
okie,now dun gave me that face.

Please,for once,let me have peace.

im so tired.really tired to go through all this once more..

till then

wohhhooo..im so happy

2008-12-19T01:37:00.000-08:00

Heeeeeeh,

Today has been productive.lol. i think?
Spent my days watching movies online. The feeling's great though the quality arent.
i dun know why but i dun have the mood to go out nowadays after a few incidents.skipped that.
and my money is slowly vanishing day by day.

Finally, i watched TWILIGHT yesterday
i did finish the book,twilight just before watching it
and somewhat dissapointed cos in the movie,they skipped a lot of scene.
but but its great though. Bella and Edward. awww..

& watched Angus,thongs and perfect snogging (ATP) just a while ago.
damn hilarious only i think its suitable for teenage girls and not GUYS? LOL.
okie,so both movies are based on novels. cool or what?
there's this scene in the ATP movie which i find kinda cute,

Robbie: I wrote a song about you.
Georgia Nicolson: Really?!
Robbie: Yeah. It's called "Bitch in Uniform".

and than after what he said orl that,he finally confess he like her. another awww.
idk how many times my heart melts today and yesterday.

till then,
:)))

2008-12-16T07:17:00.000-08:00

Forbidden to remember,terrified to forget..

-twilight

hmpht..
its been like hours since i reached home
but the feeling of tiredness just refused to go away.
im so tired i dont even know d reason why im like this,LOL.
so its was book hunting today ,for me,Lah, Alyssa & Diana.
Twilight! *SHRIEKS THOUGH THAT SOMEONE JUST SAID NONSENSE AHH.

erghhh.wateva wateva wateva wateva.heeeehhh

i saw Diana almost all the time during school's time but its alwaes be like a short Hie! and Bye! and off we go our separate ways but today,i spent amost the whole day with these two ladies :D happy and sure i spent alot too.arghhh. depressing u noe.kie kidding lah. i want those things BADLY so by hook or by crook,i must fork out that sum of money by myself.hmpft. so sad.

TWO THINGS happened to me at vivo not gonna said it but lol.my luck is still with me.

orite.i think im like gonna fall a sleep soon in front of this screen.

oh yeah this is just random but sorry

i find it weird to understand.

okie fine,i dun understand at all.

.wateva.

i think kan im like really really fallin asleep now .no mood to even online..

end here with pics.yeah,bear with it.

last thing,

PARANOID + ROBOT = ?

i tell ya irritating to the MAX lahhhhhhhh ..urghhhh,,hahha

till then lovelies,

i miss *SANKK :(

<3>

what shall i do tml huh?

omg problem problem

pissed off.

2008-12-13T23:42:00.000-08:00

i am so miserably tired now..

.
my life is miserably tiring

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i've become a very busy gal nowadays that the feelings kinda sucks big time.
i hate what i've becomin to now.For this so called 2 weeks holiday,

i've to finish up 2 projects and both weightage are heavy.

Good thing the yakult project is finishin soon.phew.syukur.

And ive to thank my members for that. :)

Talking bout d yakult project thingy, i nearly get a heart attack yesterday night.

i was busily typing out the words and compiling my group members words too

for the blog entries (yurp,the whole group is required to blog bout their experience

and stuffs.lol.nonsense ahh and its like 5 % only??

d rest of the percentage goes to d report.. -_-) until suddenly the screen went blank!

Im like in total darkness at that point of time but i didnt care.

All i care was d document and i didnt save it! wth. i screamed in that instance with anger

just building up inside. wanna noe why it suddenly went off? CAUSE my youngest sis simply

switched off the current and im so clever i didnt put the battery laptop nor save it..

i couldnt help but teared. so afraid that i've to redo all those stuff again.

And the twinney didnt help me at all when i was panickin and shoutin like hell

in the middle of d nite.Too engrossed talking on the phone!!!

i didnt talk to the two gals even before goin to bed.

im.so.pissed.

luckily,luckily.. the document was auto-saved

so yeah,i manage to recover it.syukur.

the blog is like finishin soon.yay.

i didnt realised until i saw d calendar dates.

That a new year is cumin.how time flies!

kie,im bored now..

i shall download d one hour trial game

and play like nobody business.ahahas

and i just made a livejournal account.

idk if i shud switch or not cos in lj,

i can private some of d posts.LOL.we'll see..

TILL THEN!

:))

energy...LONG POST! LONG POST! scroll till down lol

2008-12-12T07:05:00.000-08:00

I wish i could rip out a page of my memory
cause i put to much energy in him and me
Can't wait till i get through this phase cuz its killing me
Too bad we can't re-write our own history... :(

ENERGY keri hilson

exams over and im glad its really really over.Syukur.
So dont ever talked to me bout exams or stuffs related to it kie cos my mind is simply shut off now.My brain is not working where exams and bla bla bla are concern.BLANK.empty.
Thrown to the sea.-_-

So anyway,the day after my last paper, mechanics,my lovely class of H2 headed to downtown east tgt wif Matthew and Ruchi..Escape theme park! Unfortunately,H3 peeps coudnt join us cos they still have 2 paper to go which include my twinney.i seriously feel bad towards aida and lilah.So i said to taufiq,we go cycling with themlah one day.so yeah.hopefully. Soory eh korang!Sorry. One day we go out tgt.InsyaAllah.Met them at 10am and surprised surprise,"HE" went along too.hahha.

Kie,i have to say this, my class peeps are so EVIL!! READ THIS U GUYS,u all so badddddd! They kept teasing me with him at McD even before the outing start.What a way to start the funness.Early in the morning somemore. Good thing i dun really mind. lol.im so sporting.i think "he" dun understand whats goin on at all oso.im not even sure if "he" know we are talking bout him cos he's always in his own world.Very weird guy.erghhh wateva.

We get a 50% discount for d admission tix since we came in a big group.Not all the rides were available,so dissapointing and some of the ride were,ermm boring? hahah but when u are with a bunch of crazy fun insanely sporting lovely peeps arnd u,i coudnt care less anymore. i did shout and my voice sound funny when i heard and saw the video jumali recorded during the viking (pirate ship) ride.Poonam turned cute and funny d minute the ship rocked and sway higher.When it swayed down,my heart was like dropping.like seriously.

oh yeah,the burgers and wateva wateva are damn expensive! Just one burger of it is equal to the cost of a meal. OMG -_- the next plan was to go cycling and roller-coasting at the park next to it but wth,it rained.So change of plan, we went to watch the movie instead, "The Day the Earth Stood Still".quite okie.interesting but kinda draggy.Then home sweet home.my parents wasnt angry that i came home late.i reached home arnd 9pm.well yes! To them,that was late but luckily,luckily.YAY! Thankiu for understanding me. :D

AND TODAY? I went back to NYP to finish my projects.ended up slacking with them.LOL. but we are finishin.yay!

SITI ARYANEE bte JOHARI.u are missed by me and the whole class...

kie,that shud be enough i guess.shall end it with pics. Tons of it :)))

TILL THEN.

pix pix edited*

2008-12-12T06:57:00.000-08:00

screw it..screw it

2008-12-05T09:03:00.000-08:00

"when life gets hard,

screw it"

COMMON TEST NEXT WEEK..

1 down 2 more to go.

and than, outing,outing and MORE outings.

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The feelings is so terrible,so so terrible that the only thing i wanna do now

is SCREAM!!! and walked off

ONE THING REMAIN UNCHANGED,

i still hate studying.hahaha

from then,till now DUH!

2008-11-23T00:54:00.000-08:00

There are always people you wonder about but don’t make any attempts to contact.
you know,i've been doing the wondering all this while.Let's just say im afraid

of having empty conversations with someone or perhaps im just curious.

Curious about someone whose life i watched from afar.

Be it at Msn,where there's this urge to just click him/her and start a conversation

or maybe bloghopping where unfortunately i could only read a fraction of

WHAT'S HAPPENING TO THEIR LIFE lately or perhaps Friendster/tagged/facebook/multiply/myspace and wateva wateva?

i could only catch a glimpse of their photographs.BUT then,does that serve any purpose?

No.Pictures can lie.They DO lie.what u see isnt always what u get.Isnt awaes the truth,isnt it?

It’s just been too long,so long and irritating that i can’t even articulate the need

to know whatever happened to them. How are they? Are they happy?

Are they anything like the person i used to know?

&&&Guess what????
school are seriously making me overly stressed.im slowly losing the desire to study.omg
freaking out now cos exams are cuming like in a few weeks time.

on a happier note,
yesterday was full of funness

i was drenched in the pounding rain,stucked inside a tent,shouting,shrieking as the rain seeped in ,flooding the whole tent.

BELIEVE ME,that was cool anyway
hhaha. Memories that will remain in my head till whenever. i love they all.
Both my mum's to dad's side of the family.

AFTER like blogging a whole chunk,i m too tired to carry on so i left out the details.
well,haha i shall keep it in my heart/head. LOL.my sis blogged bout it though.

im in love with darin zanyar.LOL
kie nolahhhhhhhhh
till then,
:)

2008-11-21T05:38:00.000-08:00

We Had Joy,we had fun,

we had seasons in the sun...

Aidaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

bdae celebration

was a

b l a s t

:)))

till then :)

Been busy.been busy..with what? Doing nothing bla bla bla

2008-11-20T03:18:00.000-08:00

u know,i really do miss you friend,like seriously...
yet i dont have the courage to say it out loud

oh well,sentosa was great.

YET,due to my hectic life now,i cant seem to find any perfect time to update bout it.

U know,sometime even when u have the time,

u dont have the MOOD to do so which currently i dont.

BOTH,THE TIME & THE MOOD

so i'll update when i've captured the right mood.LOL hahah

SO MANY DAMN TEST coming up...

im getting dumber and lazier lah,

ah kie,whatever,

whats the purpose of updating this?

i dontknow,i just know im too lazy to study ISH ISH ISHHHHHHHH -_-

weekends cuming! AH Yerrrrrr..im oreadi picturing what will happened this saturday..

Dilemma.dilemma.dilemma.

should i go?or should i not?

2 places in one day.

one place i like,another..hmmmmmm

im so tire that i donno what to write/talk/rant/mumble/type (choose one) anymore

im so tire that i cant think anymore

im so so tire that i downat to study mechanics mock test tml anymore

im too tire that i typed "tire" without the "d" and missspelled alot of stuffs

kie, stop it argh.Lame sia

bye,bye daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa =p

whatever

2008-11-10T05:42:00.000-08:00

At some point of time,

i'll tell u something u wont want to know...

Nur Airah Misha:))))\

she so cute lah can?

my newborn niece(anak sedare) they say,my position now has been upgrade.

when she grown up later down the road,she have to call me aunt?? True? idk..

i dont like mechanics...even saying it scares me
the hatred for this subject is starting to build up inside.
i took hours and hours just to solve a few questions.Wth.pathetic.

&&&
i dont like you.
i seriously seriously seriously dont like you.
so please...

&&&
i want a miracle to happen now.
i badly want things to happen now.Good things.
Things i ve been patiently waiting to occur,to happen.
Things that make me happy.

u know,i have this feeling,all this while,
people have been assuming that i've lead a perfect lifestyle,
with perfect scores,with perfect relationship,with perfect dreams,
at almost the perfect time and PERFECT surroundings when in actual fact i dont.

BUT im grateful with what life has to offer now.
okie so not.Only to some extent. whatever it is,there are other people out there in this world who are feeling far more worse than me now.so yeah.

i better stop complaining..
ahhhhhhh AND that,my dear takes times

i want to be the 10 year old gal
i used to be few years back
At this stage of life im at now,i cant help but feeling confused over a lot alot alot of issues...
How ? u tell me,

if only,

:( Seriously, if only lahhhhhhhhhhh.....

i need u now,
:(

i've got everything for now except .....

2008-11-07T23:50:00.000-08:00

"The voices in my head, Tell me they know best!
Got me on the edge, they're pushin', pushin',
they're pushin' "

-scream HSM3

HSM3 is loved!!! <3

i know i havent been updating this blog of mine for days.I bet everyone must be assuming that there's nothing interesting happened.haaah,Apparently,there's lotsa events/incidents occuring in my life lately.So yeah,either im just plain lazy to update or i dunt have the time to spare for updating.heeeeee.happy now?

THIS WEEK was quite packed.Oh yurppp,H1 & H2 went to the yakult trip last wednesday.LOL

i get a free yakult.then there's the factory tour.Somehow or another,it was quite nice to actually see how the whole process was done.

then TGIF YESTERDAY,

only had a 1+hour lesson and sch ended.-_- so thn we alight at somerset.

i had a really fun day..AND of course since i was extremely hungry,we had this nice meal at an indonesian restaurant.yummlicious can? but haa,i didnt manage to finish all.as usual.

walked around here and there and everywhere till 5 for my HSM3 movie to start.

just 3 words!! I LOVE IT. worth it ahhh. and the songs OMG. i think im gonna watch it again if Godwilling next week.LOL. For the ferst time,my mum and dad wasnt that angry that i came home late after all the explaination.haiyerrr.. but never mind. as long as im happy,they are happy.haha

&&& last note,THANX AIN!! :)

orite here's a pic or two or three or more.idk luh.lost count from various events.lol

oh i didnt take any of the pics..

CREDITS TO POONAM

and to whoever who took the pics cos the camera was passed around

:)))

TILL THEN PEOPLE